Freaking Romance in Progress (Double Trouble Series #1)

POHEO 32

Chapter 32

Colt

   

"Damn it, Coleen."

Hindi ko na pinansin pa ang sinabi ni Romeo at patuloy siyang nilagpasan.

"What happened? Akala ko ba ayos na?" frustrated niya pang sabi.

And that's when I stopped from walking. Hindi makapaniwala ko siyang hinarap at nakita ko itong napapasabunot sa sarili. Looking so stressed that the result still turned out to be like this, huh?

"Can you, people, stop meddling with my life?" matabang kong saring.

Lumapit si Romeo sa akin at sinunggab ang aking braso.

"What's your problem? We're just trying to help you out-"

"But it's not helping! You're just making me feel worse!"

Tumakbo na ako paakyat sa kuwarto ko at iniwan siya doon.

Who do they think they are? They are not helping me out. They are pitying me! And I cannot tolerate lies. I hate being lied to when you could've just tell me the truth. Why do people practice keeping something from other people? When they all have the rights to know it!

And Ghunter? I know there's more. I can feel it. Bakit ba ayaw niya na lang sabihin sa akin? And he said he's already told me? If he really wants me to know it, then he should have been more easier to read! He's making it complicated for me!

Nagpupuyos ako sa galit sa lahat ng naipon at pinipigilang emosyon simula pa kaninang umaga. I slammed my bed. Maybe I've gone emotional because I was too carried away by all of it. I don't know anymore.

Sobrang bigat ng loob ko lalo na sa rebelasyong nalaman kaninang umaga. That's what hurts the most. I decided to stay at my room's balcony. Tanaw ang mansiyon na nasa tapat lang ng bahay namin, bumalik sa akin ang lahat ng alaala at nahirapan akong pagtagpi-tagpiin iyon.

There's a reason why I can't fully forget about Colt. And it is connected why I can't really trust Ghunter with his actions. All he says is he cares and he's worried about me. That I am his friend that's why he's doing it for me. Lahat ng mga kabutihang ipinakita niya ay nanumbalik sa isipan ko.

There's a reason why I can't conclude he's liking me more than... friends. Kung bakit ko pinapabulaanan lahat ng bagay na nagtuturo sa akin doon. I am not that heartless to consider that possibility behind his actions and words. May rason kung bakit tuwing nakakarating sa posibilidad na iyon ay agad din itong nalilihis.

That's because I have a bad feeling about it. It's all... pity... and... guilt. He thinks I am his responsibility because of... what happened... three years ago.

I felt a cold liquid on my cheek but I was too weak to even lift a finger to wipe it.

Every thing still hunts me. Sure, it's not that traumatic I know. But separating you from something... or someone... you've been living for almost your whole life is like taking your soul out of your body.

Almost my every day life consist of him. And in just one click, he vanished.

And with that, I was left with nothing because he used to be my every day. I almost lost myself that time. I don't know what to do with my life before, that he was gone and not around anymore. Like, losing your feet you've been with your whole life and now, they are gone. Hindi mo alam kung paano na mamuhay sa mga susunod na araw, linggo, o taon nang wala iyon. Every thing felt... unusually new and you were back to zero.

Nagtagal ako sa ganoong posisyon. Nakaupo sa balkonahe at tanaw ang kawalan, hinahayaan lang na dumaloy ang mga luhang nagsisilbing simbolismo ng pighati ko.