"Do you think you could possibly help?" My mother snapped at me.
I wanted to say no, but I didn't dare. "What would you like me to do?"
"Go and make the salad."
That was it, no please or thankyou.
I noticed her majesty didn't have to do anything, she was to busy swanning about, making sure everyone was paying her attention.
I went into the kitchen and to be honest I'd be happier in here, by myself. I didn't have to deal with my family.
I started preparing the salad when someone else entered the kitchen.
"Need some help?" Matt asked.
I glanced at him then looked away quickly.
"I'm fine."
"I don't mind." He said.
Yeah well I minded, a whole lot.
"Nope, I can manage."
"Fine." He sighed. "So how's work?"
"Work is work." I told him.
That was a blatant lie. I loved my job. I was a grade school teacher and I loved every minute of it. I adored my students and I was pretty sure they adored me.
"Yeah I guess."
I wished he would go away, I had nothing to say to him, we had nothing in common anymore and he was dating my sister, he out of everybody knew how I felt about her and he still dated her. Or was he? I really didn't know.
"Your coming to Brian's birthday on Saturday right?" He asked me.
Go away.
"I'm not sure."
Yes I was, I wasn't going.
"Come on Izzy, you have to come."
"I don't have to do anything." I snapped.
"Look." He said. "I want you to come."
Did he just?
I looked at him. He was smiling, and god, his stupid dimples were showing and I know he knew I couldn't resist his smile.
"Fine, I'll come for a bit." I was such an idiot.
"Good."
"So you have something on tonight?" I asked, changing the subject.
"Yeah, some dinner thing, Cara's coming."
You could've fucking asked me dickhead.
"Sounds riveting." I said.
He shrugged at me.
I finished the salad and handed the bowl to him.
"Take that out." I asked.
He nodded, turning and walking out.
I watched him. Matt and I had always been friends, we hung out together, even though he was older than me. But not now, not anymore. I guess I wasn't the right class of person for him anymore. I wasn't the right class of person for my whole family.
Snap out of it, I told myself, no feeling sorry for myself. My life was what it was and I'd dealt with it and I would continue dealing with it.
I stepped outside. Matt was sitting next to Cara and she was swooning all over him.
Now that I couldn't deal with.
