Luna Morais (REVISING)

Chapter 58

Chapter 58

It is sunday afternoon when I planned to go to Apollo's Mansion or to Zywon's Mansion. I didn't bother to tell them na uuwi na ako. And I told mom about it. It's 6 in the afternoon and I'm ready to go home. And ready to hurt myself again. I borrow Cheryll's motor for my transportation fow a mean time and of course she let me borrow it cause I'm her the best. Maybe she can call Merlin the better. And her future boyfriend good.

Yeah and i wil be and shoud be her the best.

I parked the bike in front of the mansion wondering who's car is this at bakit madaming tao. Tinanggal ko ang helmet ko at iba ang pakiramdam kong pumasok sa mansiyon. Puro maids lang ang nakikita ko walang masiyadong reaper kaya dumeretso ako sa kwarto ko.

I miss my room.

Humiga ako sa kama ko at ipinikit ang mga mata. "You can do this Vana." huminga ao ng malalim bago dumilat pero may narinig akong instrumento na nanggagaling sa garden. Exactly sa gazebo na pinagdarausan ng mga dinner. Tumayo ako at tinahak ang daan papuntang gazebo and there I saw a little blury figure answering my qustions a while ago. I saw all of them having a dinner.

It is not right to get jealous of Ava sitting beside the only living man I love the most. But here I am crying watching them having a dinner.

That should be.

Im not yet ready to set you free Zywon. Please give me more weeks o even days Zy. Please.

"Oh my gosh!" napalingon ako sa pinto na iniluwa si Merlin na naka ayos para sa gabing ito suot ang nag aalala niyang ekspresiyon. "Why are you here?" mas nagdala pa ng lungkot ang tanong niya sakin na agat kong sinagot. Suot ang walang emosiyon kong mukha ay pinunasan ko ang luhang umaagos sa mga mata ko.

"Am I not allowed here anymore?" I saw her lip bite and slowly shaked your head. At bumuga pa siya ng hininga. Humakbang ako papalapit sakaniya.

"You are allowed. But not now. You have to go before Elanor know that your here. I know you still need time with Zywon." Tumalikod na siya sakin. "Suite yourself as if you're in a mission."

"Thank you Merlin. I-I m..." lumingon siya ng nasa tapat na siya ng pintuan. I gave him a smile. A sad smile and the next thing I knew is I covered my face with my back of my hand and started to cry remembering what the eality I am facing without the man I love is really painful. He s my life.

Zywon is my life. He give me life.  

"Not yet ready to loose the man I love. And you know what it hurts the most?" I bite my lips to hold my loud cry that I want it out but I can t.  "That... You re the only one wants to fight Merlin." she hugged me before i loose myself and seat on the floor cause I can t stand anymore.

"Shhhh. Hey. S-stop. P-please stop crying." naramdaman ko ang paghagod niya sa likod ko. Napahawak ako ako sa ulo ko dahil sa kirot na nararamdaman ko but i can t do something to make it feel it better. All I want to do is to cry in Merlin s shouler. "I-I don t want to loose him Merlin. I can t. Please I don t want to loose him." it hurts that I can do something that he can tell me and tell me to fight for us. But he didn t. He didn t try to reach and tell me what we can do. And it hurts me.

How many days I am gone from this house and even a single text message I didn t recieved. Im waiting for his calls to try to meet up and talk but wala. Maybe my decision is really right.

Not to fight cause it also hard for him.

Naramdaman ko ang malaking kamay na humagod sa likod ko na alam kong hindi na si Merlin. Pinunasan ko ang luha ko and find that person. I saw Shay sincerly smiling at me so I smile back. "Uhmm. Elanor wants to see her. Cheryll tried to speak AGAIN but this time there is an authority. H-He send me to-"