Labarin Rayuwata

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Rayuwata

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Rayuwa sam ba ta min sauki ba, imagine a dan kankanun shekaruna na riga na gama sa wani a rai. Sai dai ya tafi ya barni a inda ya tsinci ne tun a farko, cikin kangin wahala ds takaicin rayuwa. Wai din na a lokacin ina zama gidan Goggo. Sai dai ina girma ina kara tuno mahaifiyata, Ummi da ta tafi ta barni ba ko waiwaye balle ta san hakin da nake ciki. Abun jarin haushin, ba ma ni kadai ba hatta yan uwanta ba wanda zai buda baki yace ga inda Ummina ta tafi. Daga ita har Maijiddah. Kanina Baffah kuwa tun yana maganan ta, har ma ya fara mantawa da ita. Sai dai yanzu shi bai ma garin Borno. Kaman yanda naji wai, cousin insu Abbahnmu tazo ta roki alfarman a bar mata shi saboda ba ta taba haihuwa ba. Hakanan kuwa suka dauke shi suka bada. Kasan ma gabadaya ita ba a nan take da zama ba. Shi inma dai rabo na dashi yayi shekaru.

Anty Nainerh ta tafi school Abuja, musamman ka fin ta wuce tazo ta same ni har gidan Goggo, kaman yanda ta saba wannan karon ma gifts ne kala kala ta kawo min. Da ke Haleematu na makaranta ita da wata kawar ta suka zo, Faree'ah. Lokacin na fara sanin ta, haka kuma daga yanayin kallon da take bina dashi kadai na fuskanci ita in su Anty Nainerhn ne. Ban ma kara tabbatarwa ba sai da naji tana ce mata "wai ke faree miye haka? Wannan wani irin kallon iskanci ne, na dai gaya miki ba irin ki bace ko?" Ba ta ma yi zaton naji zancen ba saboda na fita daga dakin su kayi shi. "To wai ke meye sa baki gwada naki sa'an na she will accept you, i can see she likes you Allah" van san wani irin reaction Anty Nainerh tayi ba na dai ji tace mata "Ba lallai ki gane ba amma Suhaima ba irin wannan son ta ke min. I know she likes me as a sister ko as a friend ko dan saboda kula da itan da nayi a school. Ba zan kuma iya destroying rayuwan ta ba kaman yanda ni nawa rayuwan ya zama. Yarinyar nan da kike gani ta sha enough wahala a rayuwan ta ba kuma tayi deserving rayuwan da mu muje ciki ba. Ina so ko yayane ne taji dadin rayuwa, shiyasa ban takura mata ba."

"Hmm ehm" shine kawai ahinda Faree'an tace daganan kuma sai na shiga dakin. Sai kuwa a lokacin na gane dalilin da yasa Abty Nainerh bata taba nema na da wani abun banza ba. It so clear she likes me like a sister. Haka dai na raka su suka tafi, wannan karon ma har wani waya ta kawo min, babba ne ma na wannan karon. Amma ni bai dame ni ba sabida wanda bake ganin za muyi wayan tare dashi, we are no longer together.

Ba zance ina da Farin jini ba, i mean ban kai Ajiddah ba. Duk da hakan ina haduwa da maza da yawa da su kan so in basu dama, sai dai ban bada fuska saboda Amir a lokacin sai akan Mai Aliyu, kaman yanda na fada muku sunan shi. Yana da ilimi sosai na arabi da na boko, malaman makarantan na matukar alfahari dashi. Duk mazan da su ke da shekaru 16, 17, 18 zuwa 19 haka za ka same su da matukar rawan kai, rashin ji da sauran su. Sai dai banda Mai Aliyu da ka ganshi ka ga natsuwa sosai a tattare dashi. Mafarin maganan mu ko watarana Mr Auwal, malamin da ke koya mana physics ya shigo ajin, sai dai har ya fita ban gane komai ba, ban ma san ina aka sa a gaba ba. Physics na matukar bani wahala duk da yanda na ke son maths. "If there is something you don't understand, remember you are free to meet me in my office. See you tomorrow class" charab! Abinda ya fada kunne na kenan, ai ko dole in je in sa me shi. Ana tashi break nayi hanyan office in nida wata kawata Aisha da ta raka ni amma sai ita ta tsaya a waje.

Su biyu ne a office da wani English teacher na SS3 Malam Aminu. Ina zuwa na nemi izinin shiga aka bani, sabon gaisuwa na musu su duka biyun ba tare da na duba daliban aji shiddan da ke zaune a wurin ba su biyu suna magana da Malam Aminu. Bayanin abinda ya kawo ni na mishi "oh okay where and what do you not understand"