Loving Heart

KABANATA 15

Kabanata 15

Happy

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Days passed like a wheel. Hindi na gaanong busy dahil magbabakasayon na. Nakakahabol naman ako kahit papaano. Kaunti nalang ang mga kailangan kong basahin at aralin. My grades are also good. Hindi ko naman napapabayaan.

Palagi kaming magkasama nina Jaz at Kyle. Sometimes Kyle is no longer with us because he has met friends. Tuwing umaga, dahil maaga pumapasok si Jaz, maaga rin syang pumapasok. Tumatambay sya sa classroom namin kaya yung mga kaklase naming naaabutan sya, mga kinikilig. Meron pa ngang maaga nang pumapasok ngayon para lang maabutan si Kyle.

Ang mga college students ngayon ay busy kumpara sa aming mga high school. Pero kahit ganon, nakakasabay pa rin si Anton sa akin minsan sa library para mag aral. Nakakasabay rin namin sya ni Jaz kumain sa cafeteria. The cafeteria of college students is not in our cafeteria but he eats there to be with us. Hindi ko nga lang alam kung gusto nya ba talaga kaming kasama o... ako lang.

Sometimes I was the only one in the library studying because Jaz didn't want to hang out there. Masyado daw tahimik at walang gwapo. So she just always waits for me in the classroom. Ayos lang naman sa akin. Sigurado kasing mabobored lang sya at baka mag ingay pa, maistorbo pa ako sa pagbabasa.

Pero hindi ko nga kasama si Jaz, may pumalit naman. Anton always texts me and always asks where I am. Hindi naman ako nagsisinungaling. Kaya kapag sinabi kong nasa library ako at nag aaral, magugulat nalang ako uupo sya sa harapan ko at magbabasa rin.

Ilang araw na ganon ang nangyayari at mas lalo pang naging kakaiba ang nararamdaman ko kapag kasama ko sya. Hindi ako manhid. Mas lalong hindi ako tanga. I know how I feel. I just don't want to think about it because I don't have that in mind yet. That's not my plan.

Anton and I have become closer to each other. Palagi ba naman syang nakasunod sa akin. Kung nasaan ako, nandoon rin sya. So eventually, we became close. We were close then but now, we have become even closer. We also meet at the coffee shop all the time and even though we are busy, nakakapag usap naman kaming dalawa roon. Palagi nya rin akong sinasamahan kumain ng hapunan sa malapit na karinderya kaya mas lalo pa kaming napalapit sa isa't isa.

I also became more aware of how I felt. I just don't want to think about it too much because I'm still busy studying and working. I don't want to think about that yet.

"But I don't like this, Elise," tita Rowena said.

We are here in the library. We have a large library. Maraming malalaking book shelf at maraming libro yon. Sa gitna ay ang lamesa ng mga tita ko. Dito sila nagtatrabaho kapag hindi nakakapasok sa opisina. At ngayon, pinatawag nila kaming dalawa ni Elise para pag usapan ang bagay na kagaya ni tita Rowena, hindi ko rin gusto.

I just leaned against the door, away from them and just listened to what was being said. Tita Teressa is at the table and tita Pamela is on the sofa. Tita Rowena is standing with her arms crossed. Sitting in the front is Elise.

"K-Kawawa naman po sila, tita. Nag sorry naman na po sila..." Elise said.

"But just being sorry is not enough for me, Elise. They have to pay for what they did to you," tita Teressa said.

I sighed. Elise was bullied again. Nadamay pa si Irene na pinagtatanggol lang si Elise. I don't know what the heck is the problem of these people. Bago na naman itong nambubully kay Elise. Hindi ba matatapos ito? Nagdidilim na naman ang paningin ko.

"At ikaw pa ang naaawa? Ikaw ang sinaktan nila," tita Pamela said.

The irritation on my aunt's faces was obvious. Blangko ang itsura ko pero kumukulo na ang dugo ko sa loob. Nagtitimpi lang ako ngayon dahil baka masugod ko na naman sa ekswela ng wala sa oras ang kung sino man ang nanakit kay Elise.