The Lady and the Genius.

Little mouse

"You don't need to do this. Please let me go." I told as he tied me up again.
"Let you go? Mouse, I just got you back. Why would I let you go?"

~(5 days ago)~

"River why would you not tell us this about your brother doing these killings?" Hotch asked
"Because I didn't know he was released till 20 minutes ago. If I did I would have told you all at the start."
"But you still didn't tell us when you did learn he was released. We thought your brother was dead." Emily stated
"I never said he was dead, just out of the picture."
"Saying that makes us think he is dead baby."
"You wanna know why I lied and acted like he was dead?! Because as soon as my father found out it was my brother who killed those innocent people, who killed his wife and our mother, he looked me dead in the eyes of that standoff like I could do the exact same thing. He abandoned me by being shot! He didn't love me. At all. Richard didn't care what my brother did, which is why everyone who worked the case back then signed that contract to keep everything hush hush, to stop everyone looking at me like I could be a killer as well! But guess what I'm not!"
"We know that River." J told
"But you guys have the little voice at the back of your head going 'what if she gets a trigger? What if this, what if that.... what if she just snaps?' Cause once it starts it never stops, I should know. I've had the small voice go 'what if your just like your brother?' Since the day I found out."
"So he was put into a mental institution. Why not a prison?" Rossi asked
"Because I wasn't lying when I said he was drugged and it made him clinically insane. He is ill so my father with the help of Richard put him in the mental institution with the strict instructions, don't let him out. And what do they do?! Let the fucker out!"
"So your brother killed Mike...." Emily started which I cut off.
"Because he would have most likely over heard me talk about him being bad." I told
"What did Jade do though to cause him to kill her?" Spencer asked
"I have no clue. He could have seen us disagree over something and just decided to kill her. I haven't seen my brother since I was eight I don't know how his mind is now. I don't know if he is taking his medication, which honestly, probably isn't. So there's that."
"So all this time your brother was an option you didn't think of?" Hotch asked
"I thought he was locked up in that building. Daisy didn't tell me in person. Dic didn't tell me in person either. Neither told me he was out. Why the fuck would I have told you all if I thought he was locked up? Guarded from innocent lives?! Cause of me Jade and all those people are dead!"
"River its not your fault."
"They've been trying to tell me since he got out. I've ignored their calls, declined them because I didn't want to answer some questions. It's my fault they all died." I told before leaving the room.
I walked out of the police station when I ran into Kate.
"Not now." I told
"Oh but River. I just wanted to say congrats on finally telling them. Takes real guts to do to what you did."
"Just fuck off Kate." I told before heading to the pier.

I was playing some notes on the keyboard there and could only think of one song to play.

(River)

"Six schools in six years
Been kicked out of every place

Everything I ever do is wrong
Never find where I belong
Everybody on my case

The same old story
The same old song:
"Don't act up, don't act out
Be strong"

I keep my head down
I keep my chin up
But it ends up all the same
With
"Pack your bags, Percy
You're always to blame."

I never try to do anything
I never mean to hurt anyone

I try, I try to be a good kid
A good kid
A good son

But no one ever will take my side
All I ever do is take the fall
I swear, I swear that I'm a good kid
Guess I'm good for nothing at all

Gabe was a world class jerk
Dad was never there
The only family that really mattered?
Well, she vanished into the air

And now I finally find a haven
Someplace safe, where I can stay
'Till it's
"Pack your bags, Percy
Now go, go away!"

I never try to do anything
I never mean to hurt anyone
I swear, I swear that I'm a good kid
Yeah, Percy, that's a good one

But no one ever will take my side
All I ever do is take the fall
I swear, I swear that I'm a good kid
Guess I'm good for nothing at all.

All the schools in six years
Every battle, everyday
No one ever tells me that they're proud
No one asks me
"Percy, how'd you like to come round and stay?"

All you get are bad grades
And a bum rap
And a bad rep
And a good smack
And no friends
And no hope
And no mom-
She's taken away

I swear I never stole anything
I never meant to hurt anyone
I swear, I swear that I'm a good kid
A good kid, who's had a bad run

And all I need is one last chance
To prove I'm good enough for someone

I'm good enough for someone

I'm good enough for someone

I'm good enough for someone."

Everyone began to clap around me but I kinda tuned them out as I began to play a few other notes when someone sat next to me.
"You know you should keep someone with you since we know your brother is the one stalking you." Spencer told
"Many people around. He wouldn't risk it." I told as I played the notes to the song I wrote with Tim ages ago.
"Lucy and Kenny said you always came here when you were sad."
"Yep."
'I know what he is going to say..... so why won't he just say it?'
We were in silence for a bit till I broke it.
"Just say it Spence."
"Say what?"
"That your breaking up with me cause of this.... cause of who my brother is and the reason I kept it hidden from you."
"River I'm not going to break up with you over this."
"Your not?"
"No I would never break up with you over this. You didn't decide to have a brother who was drugged most of his life which made him kill people."
"Then why are you acting like you are going to? Like your mad at me for all of this?"
"I'm not mad at you. I understand why you hid it for all these years. I'm mad at the fact that your thoughts made you believe we would ever think that about you. I'm mad at the mental institution for releasing him when it was stated he shouldn't be. This isn't your fault at all River."
"It is though."
"How can it possibly be your fault?"
"Because he would be dead if I didn't stop myself from doing so."
"What?"
"The hostage situation. He told me about it and why he killed those people. It's why I was able to tell them all that information. I had a chance to kill him but I couldn't because he is my brother and he was my best and only friend and I loved him so much.... I still love him but not the way I wish I could. Our father then showed up and held him at gun point which he used me as a shield since he knew if there was an innocent life at risk he wouldn't risk it and shoot. After 5 hours, not even he could shoot his own son."
"River you were only 8 and he is your brother. There was no way you could have done what you did especially after you learnt what caused it."
"I was the stresser Spence." I told before I finally let the tears go. "I was going to get hurt by someone so he killed them to protect me. I was the reason he started killing."
He gave me a soft kiss on the lips before kissing my forehead. He wiped my tears away and rested his forehead against mine.
"Is that why you started cutting and you became depressed? You blamed yourself for all of those deaths?"
I wasn't able to reply back to him so I just nodded.
"River what ever happens I will always love you. Your past is just your past. Like what you told to J. You didn't let it define who you are. Please don't start now."
"Then why does no one believe me?"
"With what?"
"Kate. She's bad news but everyone just thinks it's because I'm jealous. I never get jealous."
"I don't know why. Maybe it's because she did something in the past that only you know. And you don't remember what."
"I don't forget things though."
"What if your brain has just blocked it so you don't get hurt?"
"Was coming home a bad idea Spence?"
"No. We are going to stop this." He told before giving my forehead another kiss and then pull me into a hug. "I promise we will get through this."