Into The Rose Garden (Seidou x Kanae/Karren)

Chapter Thirty-two - A silent scream

Warning: This chapter contains themes such as sexual assault and sexual trauma, you have been warned. 

I sat alone, within my cell, awaiting my fate. That Kanou reminded me of what was to happen. I didn't know what was to come first, the stool sampling or the...the... I can't bring myself to say it. No matter what I was expecting, the outcome out of anything was much worse. So I didn't even want to think about what he was going to do to me.

Just two hours ago, that bastard cut my tendons, so even if I didn't want anything to do with it, I couldn't fight back. I didn't want any of this to happen to me, I didn't want to be treated like some...some...lab rat!

Shortly, a strange woman entered my room, unannounced. I instantly backed away, feeling some unfriendly vibes from her. Nowhere near the vibes I got from Kanou, but still nothing you would want anything to do with.

She had strawberry-blonde hair, put into a bun. And her eyes were red, but something felt...empty about her. Again, not like the way I've seen Kanou, but just...someone who has had too much taken away from them.

I tensed up, looking around the female, for any signs of the crazy bastard. I looked up at her, eyes fueled by resentment and frustration. I scoffed rudely at her. "Where is he...?" She tilted her head, wearing a blank expression. "Hmm...?" "Where is Kanou?"

She looked up at the ceiling, shrugging. "Well...he isn't here, instead he left me in charge of you, for now at least..." "What, w-why?" Why indeed, Kanou has never had a problem with getting to do certain acts to me, so what was stopping him then? She shrugged once again. "I don't know, maybe for convenience, maybe for some personal reason. I don't know really."

My body tenses up even more, once I've noticed the items she had with her. A pair of gloves, a plastic cup, a notepad and some kind of...lotion? I couldn't figure out why or what she needed those items for, but at that point, nothing good came from brought over items.

I back away slowly within my bunker. "W...What are you doing with those...?" She sighed. "It's complicated, but it's work." "What do you mean?"

She stared down on me, her gaze worries me even more. "Take off your clothes." I flinch, backing away swiftly, causing a little pain onto my tendons. I fall to the ground from the rush. "NO!" I screamed. She scoffed.

"Calm down, it'll be over quick. And you should be a little grateful. This would've been worse if Dr. Kanou was to do it instead, right? Where's the problem?" I shook my head violently, covering my body. 

"I don't care! I don't want you to touch me!" The female rolled her eyes at me, getting a little closer to me. "I thought men LOVED the idea of getting 'lucky' when it came to women. Now stay still and I'll make this quick."

I get backed into the wall, struggling to move even further away. I hated feeling that way... So helpless, so weak, so scared, so...vulnerable. I shook, even more violently this time. "Stay back, please! I don't want to, please...!" I felt my eyes swell up, and my throat croak, I was about to cry.

However, I couldn't allow myself to cry, I didn't want to seem pathetic enough as I already was. I hold my chest tightly, while my entire body shook uncontrollably. And as she laid her hand on my leg, I quickly kick her away, before she got close again.

I let go of my chest, and I began crawling away and hitting her at the same time. My tendons were hurting, but I didn't care. I just wanted to get away. I don't know why I was so hesitant, or why I fought back. I should've figured after trying to run away from Kanou and Tatara, that doing such things couldn't help me with my situation.

She was quickly losing her patience, so she grabbed my foot, causing my achilles to burn and writhe with pain. I attempted to scream, only for nothing but soft gasps to escape. The pain was so painful, and yet...I refused to make a sound.