Into The Rose Garden (Seidou x Kanae/Karren)

Chapter One hundred - Back to Hell

The whole ride across the waters to the island was all a blur to Seidou. He couldn't care less about it, after everything. He felt so very numb, yet so very hurt. This was his only way to protect Kanae from the exact same suffering.

What else could he have done, the strongest ghouls from Aogiri had gone there. Not for him, but Kanae. He couldn't just let her go with them, and suffer through the same thing he had. Getting on the island itself was pretty much the same thing, however his body wouldn't physically move going through the lab. 

So as annoying as it was, Tatara had to carry him until meeting up with a certain someone. "Yo, doc...! We found your little science project." And Kanou was very much shocked to see the young man there, but didn't bat an eye or show much of a reaction.

"Glad to hear it; leave him in my office, a checkup is in order." Kanou looked over at the younger male, seeing his face lowered and his eyes blank. Leaving even Kanou curious on this state.

And so, the two were left alone. Kanou sighed deeply as he stood close to the boy. "Alright, so... Surprised to see you back." "I guess..." Seidou responded weakly. "From I remember, you told me yourself...'I will never return to you bastards', so what happened with that?"

Seidou looked up slowly, not giving much of a shit. He then goes on to answer that with a question, but not just any question, a question he had asked before with the same person. "Have you ever been...in love...?" 

In which Kanou quickly caught on. "Ah, this has to do with your little girlfriend." "S-She was apparently the last surviving member of a ghoul family called-!" "The Rosewalds? Yeah, I heard." Seidou's eyes widen momentarily, before scoffing. "Of course you did..."

Kanou crossed his arms, as if to look down on the unfortunate young man. "And so...you just let yourself be taken instead, for her sake?" "What else would you want to know, you plan on using something against me?" Kanou shrugged. "Probably, probably not. It's just really hard to see why you would do that. I mean, I can never imagine myself doing anything like that for anyone..." 

Seidou rolled his eyes. "Because one, you're a literal psychopath, and two you...appear to be very, um...what's the scientific term?" Kanou groaned, at this patronizing remark from Seidou. "You can drop the science, I'm simply an asexual." 

"Oh, wow...you're very blunt about it..." Kanou again groaned, he hated bringing his orientation to the mix of anything, but the younger male's ignorance irked him. "Well sure, it's nothing special. So giving you that context, there is one last question I would like to ask for today."

Seidou forward. "Which is...?" "What does 'being in love' mean to you? How does it feel, and why did it make you stupid enough to throw away your own personal safety?" To that, all Seidou could think about was all of his time with the female. Good or bad, simple or complex. Seeing her smile, seeing her all stubborn and protective nature. Seeing her, at her best and worst.

Her laughter, her smell, her hair, her eyes, her voice, her soft-spot. Why wouldn't he give himself up for her, especially when he was able to be true with her around too. "Why? I thought you believed it was stupid." Kanou nodded nonchalantly. "I do. And yet I still find myself curious on the aspect. Maybe you'll feel a little better talking about this, which could potentially make this easier on you to take in." 

Seidou sighed, a faint smile struggling to stay. "Love, well...for me... Being in love is, just being there for someone you care about deeply, this goes for familial and platonic love. But this love, is much deeper than that. It feels... It feels like it's just you and them, and you want to give up everything for them, but all they want is your time and attention. You understand each other, you just...do..." Seidou sighed, his eyes appearing dazed as he kept them open and thought about the love of his life.

"It's more than 'love'...you're in love, and..." Suddenly, all of this talk got to the young male, as his head lowered. His tone weakening. "And...you never want to be apart from them, and it just...just..." Seidou sighed, not wanting to show his vulnerability to the older man. But his voice did end up breaking.

"A-And it just hurts and...I've never felt this kind of hurt before, why...?" Kanou sighed, not knowing how to answer the young male. "I wouldn't know, I can't really feel much, if anything. But what you're experiencing could be-!"

The door is slammed open, Tatara appearing furious over something... Without warning, Tatara walked over to Seidou, grabbing onto his arm causing Seidou to tense up severely. Kanou spoke. "Wait, Tatara-! You didn't-! We haven't talked about this, what are you-?" "Quiet, Kanou. This is a personal lesson to teach the punk." 

Seidou didn't say anything, but wore an uncomfortable expression. He was done fighting... Though a part of him couldn't help but feel concerned about what he had in store for him. Kanou raised an eyebrow, following behind from a safer distance, as if watching a dumpster fire.

Tatara slammed another door open, and Seidou looked up ahead. 'A sink...?' Tatara still holding tightly onto the male, turning on the faucet and plugging up the sink. Turning the faucet away once the bowl had filled up. Seidou's eyebrows furrow at this, before Tatara yanked him, grabbing onto Seidou's head as he forcibly pushed his head into the water. "W-What-?! Ugh, s-sto-!" Seidou tried fighting back, grabbing onto the rim of the sink, trying to pull his head up.

"W-What do you think you're do-?!" Before having his head dunked down again. "Tatara, what are you doing exactly? Doesn't this seem excessive? I mean...come on Tatara." Tatara turned his head. "Shut it, Kanou! Not now." Seidou raised his head up and gasped loudly from this chance, only to be pushed back down. "Tatara, why are you doing this, out of pure curiosity of course." Tatara scoffed. "Does it matter?" "Well, to some degree. I could care less on what you actually do here, I just figured to have a little input."

Tatara rolled his eyes, pulling Seidou's head up for moment, as if to have him take a breather and listen. "This...is a personal lesson to those who just try to run and hide away from us, Aogiri is not to be fooled. And this piece of shit actually went and did it!" He then pushed Seidou's head back down.

Seidou had tried over and over to get a tight grip onto the rim of the sink, only for it to slip. Seidou gasps once his head was up for a brief second. "Tatara, I think he's going to pass out."

Tatara groaned. "For the last time, does it matter? Passing out like this should teach him a lesson, that a piece of shit like him shouldn't be tailored to!" Seidou lifts his head up, having enough of the torment. "I'M A PIECE OF SHIT, OKAY?! I'M WORTHLESS AND STUPID, SO PLEASE JUST-!" Tatara pushed his head down the water for a few more seconds, before pulling the male up tossing him to the ground. Where he hacked and coughed violently, his head down and his hair covering his face. As water splattered onto the floor, Seidou looks down onto the ground as he went on. His palms against the flooring.

"See, you over did it." "Shut up! Like you're the one to talk, Mister 'for science'."

Seidou slowly moved his head up, a little too startled to even look up at his attacker. Tatara scoffed, glaring onto Seidou's left eye. Or what was covering it at least. "God, that eyepatch is so tacky..." Tatara, without another word, walked up to Seidou. As to remove it quickly. Seidou grabbed ahold of the hand that held greatly onto it, swinging his hair out of sight. As the most desperate look was shown though his facial expression, mainly through his quivering and focused eyes.

"Let go-!" "You can't take that! That has no value for you! Please, just let go! She gave that to me, that was given to me by Karren! SO GIVE IT BACK!" Tatara scoffed, yanking his hand away, and successfully taking the eyepatch himself. "Pathetic..." Tatara makes his way out, only to turn to the older male before him. "I'll leave him with you, Doctor. Do what you must, and get it over with." And placing the eyepatch within his pocket.

And Kanou just stares down at a crying Seidou, covering his face as he remained on the floor. "She gave that to me... That was the very first gift Karren had ever gotten for me, and now...it's gone...!"

Kanou grumbled in not only slight annoyance, but there was also pity in there, somewhere at least. Kanou walked over to the younger male, patting onto his shoulder. "Come on Takizawa, let's get going." Seidou slowly stood up, not bothering to wipe the tears away this time around. Kanou sighed, leading the male as they both left the room.

"We have work to do."