Into The Rose Garden (Seidou x Kanae/Karren)

Chapter Eighty-nine - Awareness of a sister

I have this problem, currently anyone who've ever been to know about me and my family's situation, keep making me upset. Apologizing for the loss of my brother.

I hated hearing everyone tell me, day by day, trying to remind me that my brother was dead. When I knew myself, that he was very much alive! He wouldn't just drop dead like that, without even seeing his corpse first.

What would they know, no one there cared enough about my brother to deny it. They just...accepted it. My parents are the same way.

I hated feeling like I was wrong, I hated feeling like everyone saw me as crazy. My brother was-! IS strong. He's loyal, selfless and determined. But of course, sometimes I wondered if I had some sort of doubt, maybe somewhere deep in there. I never let this get into my thoughts, but perhaps it was there?

However, upon meeting up with an actual friend of my big brother, he was indeed very much alive!

I was so thrilled, so happy! I knew it, I knew he was out there, and everyone thought I had gone mad. So upon my own choosing, I joined this 'Hideyoshi Nagachika' on this search for my brother. He was out there somewhere, just very much lost.

So I spent days and days in either school, with friends or out with Nagachika. The dude was...a little annoying at first, but that quickly went away as I had gotten to know him. He's...a cool guy, and he's...kinda cute...

Oh, where was I? Oh yeah, the search. 

Eventually, I had to take more time out of searching for my school and home life. It turned out that my mother was pregnant, so I had to be there for her. It was...tough, realizing that we had to make due with a new member of the family.

But of course, I took time into hanging with Nagachika. "So yeah, our dad has had to work a lot more to support Mom and the baby, so lately I had to help out around the house." Nagachika tilted his head, holding up his paper. "Really, your parents are having another child, at their age? Damn, they must like getting..." Nagachika implied, as I groaned. "Ugh, please don't let me open up that can of worms. Honestly, I get enough of that from them, it's so gross..."

"It's nothing gross, getting physical and making love is a beautiful thing." I rolled my eyes. "Not if you know it's your parents... Seriously, I'd rather believe I was delivered by a stork than that shit."

Nagachika winked, writing something down. "My Seina, so bad..." He teased. "Oh please, don't start. And who gave you the permission to call me Seina?" "Uh, you did...? Question mark."

I growled softly. "You don't have to write question mark, when you already applied it as a question!" Overall, I actually like spending time with Nagachika.

He's funny, supportive, kind a-and he's...just sweet. I didn't think of these as anything other than some friendship, at most it was just a mild crush. He's nice, but I don't know if I would want us to be anything more than... He's a good friend to Seidou, and I'm happy for that.

One day, after another day into his search, he came out to me with something. "Seina... I had a friend before Seidou, but he wasn't just a friend...he was my best friend. Honestly, it would be nice if all five of us could just...hang out." A best friend? Who was it, was he alright? Maybe he'll tell me more about it in the future? Oh, w-why should I care? It's not like we're that close, you know?

Still, that's how things went on. I did my schoolwork, spent time with family and friends then talk with Nagachika. However, one day was oddly...different. I attempted to run up into my room, only to be stopped by the sound of my dad's voice.

"Seina...!" "D-Dad?!" I slowly walk back down, backwards from the stairs. "Y-You're actually home." I walk into the living room, and instantly I saw some old geezer... Something clicked, and he didn't seem right to me. He was smiling warmly, but his energy was just so...cold.