Into The Rose Garden (Seidou x Kanae/Karren)

Chapter One hundred and one - Possession

Warning: This chapter contains themes of multiple cases and mentions of abuse. Mainly sexual assault, abuse, trauma and attempted rape. Especially female on male assault. You have been warned. Also, obviously the art used does not belong to me.

Seidou sat and sat, holding on tightly onto his latest wound. It was more painful than he could ever had recalled. 

Seidou sat alone until the doctor came in, ready for a checkup. "So Takizawa, how are you feeling? Physically speaking." Seidou clenched even tighter. "I-It really hurts...more than I remembered before..." "The human body is like that. When certain stimuli come into the brain, such as pain or pleasure, it eventually gets used to it and the amount of stimuli needs to increase to get an affect. However because you haven't felt that stimuli in months, it feels just as painful as the first time it happened."

Seidou nodded weakly, as he didn't really find the strength to care. Kanou crossed his arms. "No comment...?" The young male laid down, as he had wasted whatever energy he had on sitting up. "What is there to say...?" "I haven't heard you complain about a lot, you scream bloody murder when the procedure is taking place, and yet...you don't even beg for it to stop anymore."

Seidou sighs weakly, shifting his eyes away. "Just leave me alone, please... What's the point in begging or anything if I know you won't listen...?" Kanou raised an eyebrow. 'Strange...this isn't the Takizawa I knew before. Then again, maybe it's for the best.' 

The doctor cleared his throat. "A-Anyway... Just out of curiosity, how do you feel, emotionally speaking...?" Seidou moved his eyes towards Kanou, glaring. "Why would you care to ask?" "I need to keep tabs on my patient's health, and how that affects his performance with tests and experiments. Even if I don't care for it personally, it's still my responsibility to do so." Seidou groaned weakly, as he let his arm rest to the side.

Kanou clarified himself, by asking a similar question. "How do you feel, Takizawa?" Seidou was silent, contemplating an empty void within himself. An indescribable void. "I feel...nothing. Like, I can't even feel...anything..." He then looked up at Kanou.

"But hey, you know that experience far too well, don't ya...? I guess we finally have something in common..." Kanou made no comment, and just simply left. Seidou was like a trapped animal, giving up on struggling within his cage. 

Kanou sighed, as Deja vu hit him hard. "Well said, Takizawa... Well said."

The very next day, Seidou laid down and thought over many things. Going back to holding and embracing his pillow greatly, thinking about Kanae. Her smile, her attitude and even her smell. He cried to himself silently, muffling it into the same pillow.

He wished there was a way to feel her warmth and coldness at once, her slim but fit body. To whisper sweet little nothings, as he was the first to drift off into sleep. Kanae being the first one to awaken, letting him rest into her arms and chest as she felt his breathing against her. And he would wake up, bashful but beyond happy. They had gotten so far together, and for what?

Seidou quickly sat up, wiping his tears as he heard the door open. It was an unseen male, bringing in familiar-looking objects. A little TOO familiar. Stuff that was needed for the day he was assaulted. That hellish nightmare, was returning.

Seidou shook his head, pissed. His adrenaline spiking.  "Uh uh, NO! I know what you're planning with those, the door is right behind you, so leave!" The unnamed male scoffed, pulling the objects up. "Oh come on, it's not that bad. I know it's a whole lot different with me being a-!" "LEAVE!"

The male sighed, shaken but backing up. "Listen, you pissed the old man pretty well off, so simply he thought-!" "If you fucking touch me...I swear to God I WILL RIP YOUR HORRID BODY APART!" The male stood back, raising his hands up as he slowly began to walk away. "Uh, nope... Nope nope nope, nothing is worth this. See you never, Demon..." Seidou raised an eyebrow. 'Demon...?' He thought.