Into The Rose Garden (Seidou x Kanae/Karren)

Chapter Sixty-six - Therapy

Warning: Contains themes of mental and emotional trauma, with some themes relating to encounters with previous abusers. Also contains little themes of suicidal thoughts and actions.

Seidou paces back and forth within his room, holding his hair with one hand and shaking the other. 'What should I do...? He'll find me in no time! H-He...He saw me, right in the face.' 'Maybe you should hunt him down first, and stop him from saying anything.' Seidou grunts in frustration. 'Ugh, I wonder if he's left by now...' 'If not...I'm sure we can track him down; his scent has pretty much embedded itself within our brain.'

Seidou sighs to himself, now using both hands to ruffle up his hair. 'No...no, he must've left. But now...he has the knowledge of which ward I'm hiding in.' 'If we wanted to...we can send him threats his way. Than again, I'm not sure if the guy would even care!'

Seidou soon gets exhausted, taking a seat onto his mattress. 'He's out there, and he knows about my location...for the most part at least...' 'Maybe he's toying with us, playing one of his little mind games. Who knows, it could be fun.' Seidou lowers his head.

'I can't let anyone know, I can't let them know about my encounter with him. If I do...who knows what they would do with me... Damn Kanou, always to be the one to make my life miserable.' 'Don't let him rattle you, Seidou.'

Seidou shakes his head. 'I don't know what to do, or who could actually help...' 'Honestly, it would be a lot easier if the motherfucker dropped dead.'

Seidou began rocking his body, holding himself with his arms. 'Why...? Why did he have to see me?! Did he...know where I was, or was it just as much as a surprise to him? I need to calm down, if I let this interfere with my current life, than he'll win! Ugh, I hate this!'

Seidou then takes a deep breath, holding his chest as he breathed it out. 'Maybe I should...ignore it? If I think about all of this, it'll just get worse. Kanou saw me, what's done is done. But right now, I need to work on my current problems.'

Seidou nods to himself. "Y-Yeah, I have work to do. I have laundry and dish duty today, also to mention some tidy work. I've got this!" Seidou again sighs deeply, trying as he could to rid himself of his bothersome thoughts.

He moves along, moving around the house, finding forgotten wine glasses and plates. And once he's found what he could, he makes his way into the kitchen, loading up the dish washer and shutting it to leave it alone.

He smiles to himself softly, feeling a little better through his productivity. He makes his way into at least four rooms before Kanae has been 'caught' waiting for him. Kanae raises an eyebrow, as Seidou's gentle smile shifts into a neutral expression.

Kanae crosses his arms, leaning against the wall. "Seidou, I need to talk to you." Seidou half closes his eyelids, sighing softly. "Am I in trouble, Kanae?"

The younger male shook his head. "No, it's not like that..." "Can't we talk about it while I work? I want to catch up before everyone else do their parts."

To which, Kanae agrees. Seidou carries along his hamper of laundry, as Kanae follows close behind, Kanae clears his throat.

"So, Seidou...lately I've noticed something about you... Forgive me if I'm mistaken, but, you seem a lot more...well, distant." Seidou lifts his head up as Kanae spoke. "What do you mean?"

Kanae places a hand on the back of his neck. "I mean, we used to talk a lot more often, about your struggles and-!" "Isn't that a good thing? I can no longer bother you guys about it, and it means I'm getting over it, right?"