Charli | I Love You Forever & Always

Ch.37

Jules POV
I woke up my head on nessas stomach with a pounding In my head within seconds I shoved my face back into her and brought my hands to my head and Nessa moved a little
N: u ok?
"Mhmm"
N: ok
I hugged Nessa while everything came back to my head and silently cried
N: what's wrong
"Nothing"
N: yeah sureee what's wrong
"I umm I rlly fucked up hugh"
N: no Jules everyone fucks up sometimes but friends are here to pick you up
"Ok"
N: ok let's get up u go shower and get ready I'll do the same

I just stared at her drawling a blank and kept recalling every kissing her over and over again i don't know why

N: why r u looking at me like that?
"I umm I kissed you"
N: oh you remembered
"Not all of it"
N: look it meant nothing
"Meant nothing to who, you?"
N: yeah
"Your lying"
N: no I'm not
"You said you loved me more than a friend"
N: I thought u were drunk
" I was"
N: then how do u
"I have good memory drunk apparently"
N: oh
It was quite as she played with her hands standing in front of me
N: look u have a girlfriend and I don't want to ruin that for you so just forget I said that or that we kissed ok it better for everyone
"Better for everyone but u"
N: Jules
"How long Nessa"
N: why
" just answer please"
N: since before we were friends
"I'm sorry"
N: its not your  fault Jules
"No no I'm sorry I backed out of asking u in a date, I um when I came up to you that day at jxdn's party and I was talking u I was dated to ask u on a date bot to become friends"
N: oh
"Mhmm"
N: so what does that mean
"That means that I thought u were cute before u became my best friend"
N: ok.....
"That means that deep down I knew I had feeling through the friendship"
N: Jules
"That means I was honest when I kissed u"
N: no
"That means -
N: nothing, it means nothing I r in a relationship, u r best friends with your girlfriends sister u r too good for me, u r happy Jules, u have charli u have another family u have a future with her and I need to get over the fact that you and I will never work
"Nessa"
N: look don't say anything forget the conversation even happened
"But"
N: no, I'm gonna shower ok
"Ok then"
She walked off crying to her bathroom closing the door and I plopped back down on the bed, I just broke her heart... my best fucken friend I broke her heart I got up and nocked on the door to her bathroom over and over
N: what Jules
I could tell in her voice she was crying
"Open the door"
She opened it my eyes meeting her red ones as I grabbed her face and connected our lips I don't know why I'm doing this right now but she kissed me back after a second until we both pulled away
N: what about-
"Not right now"
N: ok, well I actually need to shower
"So do I.."
N: interesting
She pulled me by my shirt and we were in the restroom now undressing each other going in the shower.....

Charli POV
Dixie left me on the balcony of the hype house and I was crying god I feel like I shitty person after a while in oiled it together grabbed my purse and headed inside to leave and I looked for thomas seeing chase in the kitchen
"I know where Thomas is?"
Chase: he left no to long ago
"Oh ok"
Chase: why
"I was gonna so him to take me to my car cuz paparazzi is gonna bombard me"
Chase: let me I'll go with u
"Thankyou"
Chase: of course, also sorry about the kissing thing. It was in the moment I don't want to ruin your relationship I'm sorry
"It's ok takes two ppl to make out, but I'm pretty sure I already ruined my relationship before kissing you"
Chase: sorry about that
"It's not your fault"
Chase: ok well shall we go now
"Yeah umm do u mind if I keep your hoodie on"
Chase: not at all, your good
"Thx also weird question but can I ask for a favor"
Chase: mhmm anything
"I don't want to be alone "
Chase: what do u mean
"Tonight, I don't want to be alone"
Chase: oh yeah no problem I'll pack a bag
"Yeah?"
Chase: yeah I'll be back or you can come with me

We went upstairs and he packed basic stuff for one night and with that we left and he answered the questions for me simply saying 'she's not ready to address anything yet' and we drove my car back to my house
"Thankyou again for staying with me"
Chase: of course
He smiled and then focused back on the road while I day dreamed looking out to window and we arrived and went up to my room and watched a movie, he didn't ask much he just was there, it was the presence that mattered to me, we went to sleep and the next morning he made me breakfast and we got Dunkin' and then he left needing to work on his music at the studio and I was alone again I called Dixie

Dixie
Hey what's up
Can I see Jules now
Sure she should be sobered up by now I'll head out in a bit, she's at nessa's
Ok see u later then
Alr bye
Bye
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I was already ready so I jumped in my car and headed to nessa's

Jules POV
We didn't do anything but shower nothing more. We changed and went into the kitchen and she cooked while I sat on the counter
Nessa: so you know I'm not gonna ignore the fact that u relapsed yesterday, the cutting?
"I know u weren't"
Nessa: why
"I need to feel something for myself something that I wasn't getting from someone else like charli made me happy but I didn't make myself happy if that makes sense"
Ness: yeah
"It doesn't make up for anything but I guess that's where my head was"
Ness: I get it
"Yeah"
She continued cooking and she plated pancakes and eggs
Nessa: Jaden and coop are bringing coffee they should be here any minute
"Ok"
She unlocked the door before standing in between my legs gently placing her hand on my thighs while she stared at me, I giggled
"why r u staring at me like that
Nessa: no reason your just... pretty
"Why Thankyou so r u Barrett"
N: my last name makes me cringe
"Yeah ok"
I loved her hair out of her face and grabbed her chin connected our lips again until the door busted open and we turned quickly seeing....

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Cliff hangerrrr