TW: Discussion of abuse and assault from the start
It's Halloween. Usually I'm a bit more enthusiastic about that, but honestly after this week, the usual excitement of the Halloween spirit has diminished. My mind is bombarded with nightmares of Maya getting worse and hurting me more than she already physically has. I'm talking severe physical damage that simply cannot be reversed. I don't feel safe being alone with Maya, I don't think I can make it to the end of the week. It's making me feel stressed until I feel like I'm going to fall over and be sick.
On top of all that, I haven't rehearsed a single thing for the show, I'm going in completely blind I suppose. This is so unlike me. I'll do the usual Calling All The Monsters and Transylvania like I do every year, but what else? Madness? It might have to be. Fuck this is hard. Staring at myself in the bathroom mirror doesn't help my problem. I'm hungry. If I want to do anything, I'm probably best having some breakfast before even thinking of what I might do.
{Maya's POV}
M: [explaining O2 show to Graham] We're thinking of telling Evin by Sunday so we can start promoting it on Monday to generate enough ticket sales.
G: What date will the show be?
M: It's booked for November 30. The day after one of the Gallagher brothers, so this should be fun.
G: This will go either very well or crush Evin.
M: You sound rather optimistic.
G: Yeah, I know. It's just, sometimes Evin is a bit too wishful when it comes to things and they mightn't be able to sell out the venue. That's what they really want to be doing, but they have to be realistic about it.
M: They've been very quiet upstairs for a long while now, should I check on them?
G: You probably should.
M: Permiso.
{Evin's POV}
There's no way I'm gonna pull off tonight. I've done no preparation, my outfit worse than my dad's marriage to Priscilla, and there's no spark in me to do this. I can't bail last minute and say it's my fever considering I was at that bloody bootleg Wombles convention, what in the hell am I gonna do? I'm in my bed about this, aren't I? People are going to see me en vivo, so I better get my ass out of bed and make my first en vivo appearance since all that family stuff somehow leaked onto the internet.
E: [lying in plush toy pile]
M: [comes into room] Evin, where are you?
E: [doesn't respond]
M: I see you've fallen victim to Build a Bear Workshop Wimbledon.
E: [unwilling to talk]
M: [sits on ground] Hey, what's the matter?
E: [looking at ceiling]
M: [softly] You can't really be quiet all day. Something's up. What's wrong?
E: [regretfully] I don't want to do the show tonight.
M: [surprised] But Evin you've been waiting all year for this!
E: I've done nothing to prepare for it, there's no point.
M: [checks head temperature] Come on now. Are you just going to let yourself cancel last minute when you're perfectly capable of pulling something together at such short notice? You've done it so many times Evin, don't give up now.
E: [pushes]
M: [stunned] What was that for?!
E: [gets up and walks to bathroom]
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The Trials and Tribulations of a so-called Trouble Teen
General FictionThings never seem to go smoothly for Evin. Each day presents a new challenge for them, sometimes more difficult than others. Despite all this, they power through life their way and they won't stop at anything until they achieve their goals, or justi...
