The Trials and Tribulations of a so-called Trouble Teen

Chapter 52 - Yet Again, Nothing Has Changed

Friday has come around once again. It's funny how that happens isn't it? Maya and I have no plans other than staying in bed all day again.

M: [stroking Evin's hair]

E: [nervously biting thumbs]

M: I don't know what I wanna do anymore.

E: Neither do I.

M: I don't even wanna have ice cream.

E: But you love ice cream?

M: It doesn't feel worth it.

E: [sits up] Why are we doing this? Why are we sitting here feeling sorry for ourselves? What's the point in wallowing in our sadness when we could actually get up and turn it into something else Maya?

M: Nothing has any point anymore. I don't feel like continuing anything.

E: [slaps] Snap out of it!

M: Ouch! [sit up] Why would you do that?

E: Doesn't feel nice, huh?

M: You're right... [sighs] Evin?

E: Yeah?

M: You're right. Look at me. My hair's all matted sitting in bed, I haven't taken care of myself and that's going to just make me feel worse. [slowly gets out of bed] I'm gonna get a shower and get myself into a fresh set of pyjamas. [stands up] Why do you treat yourself? [slowly opens drawer]

E: [watches eagerly]

M: [lifts out lollipop] This is for you. [opens wrapper and places lollipop in Evin's mouth] Good kid. [walks into bathroom]

E: [looks at phone] Despite all this shit, I'm still very much privileged in my life and should be grateful for what I still have. [sighs and continues eating lollipop]

You know, regardless of what has happened to Maya and I, we need to move on. So what if the world knows our not so secret secrets? It's hardly like we're on national television crying about it. Whoever announced it to Twitter is bound to know us closely enough to have found out. We don't go out of our ways to make everyone know about our personal plans, do we? Is this our fault? God, I don't even know how to think right now. There's no point putting our negative energy into this, we could take this opportunity by the tits and make it a positive outlet for those affected by such a situation. I know we're not alone in this.

Fuck, for all I know, I could get a number one single out of this. All profits to charity causes supporting vulnerable young people in Surrey and beyond. Hell for it, I think we should do this. Capitalise off a tragedy in the name of modern society. We're working on a new album anyway, the lead single could be a heart wrencher for millions. Something like Brutal Love. I have a platform to raise awareness and I should be using it to its full extent. This is an opportunity to teach empathy to those who lack it and raise our voices for a topic that is so buried beneath the waves of the waters surrounding this island. And this isn't just a class issue either, it's an issue that affects all walks of life. It doesn't matter how comfortable or uncomfortable you are in life, parental abandonment is a very real issue that millions have faced for all sorts of reasons.

This is an opportunity for Maya and I to learn more about our deepest thoughts and feelings. I still have room to grow and improve, I'm only young. Life is a learning journey and just because I'm out of school, it doesn't mean the learning stops. There's all sorts out there for me. I'm empowered in who I am already, I might as well take a chance to empower others.

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M: [towel drying hair]

E: [looking through record collection] There is bound to be something in here...