Dirty Little Secret

Creeps and Fights

Nicolas' POV

  
    After Shannon leaves, I stay on the bed, staring up at the ceiling  as if it can fix this or give me answers.

   I call out for Jace in my mind, feeling his conscious at the edge of my brain, but the iron clamped around my leg makes my head fuzzy, the connection impossible, calling to him, but no noise reaching his mind.

    After a while I stop trying, only laying there on my back with tear streaming down my face and towards the bed, the memory of his words playing in my mind.

   'I won't let anything else happen to you.'

    I wish it could have been true.

    Turning on my side, I look at the room that Shannon set up for me, noticing the things she brought that she knew I would like, like the beanbag chair in the corner next to a small bookcase. But it only makes me hate the room, knowing that the only thing it will be to me is a cell.

    Just as my mind finally starts to calm down and allow me to get some voluntary sleep, I hear my door creak, and my eyes immediately snap open, shifting my head to see Nathan come inside the door.

   I sit up, scrambling to get out of the vulnerable position, and press my back against the head board, my body stiff and shaking.

   Nathan only watched in amusement as he closed the door behind him and walks towards my bed, whimpers falling from my throat as my heavy body protests from the sudden movement. He comes to sit at the foot of my bed, turning his body to face me, and when I look at him bile rises in my throat.

    'I hope he has a slow and miserable death that makes him wish he could grovel for our forgiveness.' Benny growls darkly, and my lips almost lift into a smile at the unusually threatening words coming from my wolf.

    "I told you that you would be mine, Nicolas." He tells me sweetly, the annoying glow of winning dripping from him, and all I want to do is punch his stupid face.

     "I hate you." I whisper, even as I shy away from the boy, his charming smile no longer able to hide the monster he really is.

   He shakes his head as if disappointed before smiling at me.

   "It doesn't matter. You're mine. Over time you'll learn to obey. And perhaps you'll even fall in love with me. But either way it goes, you are with me, your Mate. You're true love. Not someone tainted by hate and impurities." He spits out the last sentence, and I can see the lack of compassion, the lack of a soul from the emptiness of his eyes.

     The price of being a human without a soulmate.

    "You and I will be together forever." He says to me, his voice back to its soothing nature, but the effect that it once kay have had on me is long gone, and I scowl at him, tears of anger frustration and loss swelling.

    "I will never listen to you or love you. You don't deserve love, and you will never get it from me. And Jason is not tainted!" I tell him, my voice slowing raises as my emotions pure out until it's all I can feel. "He's not my real brother, he's my Mate and he is the only one who I will ever obey or love. Soon you'll be nothing but a bad half forgotten memory." I tell him, tears streaming down my face, and I watch his satisfaction as his face hardens, fear seductive as it dances along the edges.

    His movement is face, his body coming to lean over mine and I shake with swallowed sobs as he sneers at me, my body trying it's best to disappear into the mattress.

    His hand comes up to wrap around my throat, and my choked sobs stop entirely as my throat closes. My body tried to cough, breath, do
something, but all I can do is struggle, my hands clawing weakly at his own.

     "Stop fucking lying. That's all you do. You're a brainwashed disgusting slut, and you deserve to die with the filth he covered you in." He tells me, his face lowering closer to mine, and my vision starts to get blurry, Benny's voice a distant murmur I can't focus on. Nathan moved until his lips are near my ear before he speaks again. "You are mine. I am your one and only Mate, and if you don't start believing in it yourself, I'll make sure to make it true so he'll never bother us again."

   Just as my vision starts to turn black, I'm released, Nathan snatching his head away as if burned or disgusted.

   I cough and sob, air struggling to make it through, and I lay there helplessly as Nathan stand up and looks down on me with such contempt I wish looks could kill so I could be put out my my misery.

   "You'll learn to love me. Either that or you'll be so broken you won't be able to love anyone else. And either way is fine with me." He tells me before he opens my door and disappears.

   It still takes me almost five minutes to calm down after he leaves, but even as my breathe evens out, panic still clutches my heart tightly, and it's all I can do to hold on to the hope that Jace will  come and save me. That he won't let anything else happen to me just like he said.

   With nothing else to do other than act the puppet Shannon wants me to be, I pull out a book and begin reading it, immersing myself into the fantasy land with happy endings, hoping and praying that I will get mine.

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Don't worry Nicky boo it's in the works and will be finished soon. What do you think is going to happen next?

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