Dirty Little Secret

Crying and Fear

Benny's POV

       "You know what this is?" Nathan asks me, showing me the clear vile in front of my eyes, the light blue liquid inside almost appearing to be glowing, and I eye it warily before looking at Nathan.

   "Magic." I answer, and he glared at me, as if that's not the answer he wants, and I try to drill my heart, the thing pounding in my chest harshly as I bet soy you push myself further into the bed from behind me.

   "Yes, but that's obvious. You should be smarter than that." He tells me, and from the disapproving look in his eye, I assume he blames that on Jason too.

    I fiddle with my hands in front of me, squeezing them anxiously as Nathan stands over me at the foot of my bed, his hands occupied with the bile of magic that he wants me to guess. My throat feels like sandpaper as I swallow, his eyes feeling like it's their own kind of magic, forcing me yo be still under the disgusting weight of his gaze, my skin cracking at the look of possession in his eyes, hating him with everything inside of me.

   I quietly pray to the Moon Goddess, hoping that since she was right about Jace and I, that she had the power to bring us back together again.

   That she will bring Ryan here so I can at least see his smile for the last time.

    "If it's a love potion, those don't work on people who have already found their Mate." I tell him, grateful that Nick and I always had a fascination for the Mate process when we were younger.

     Nathan nods his head as if in thought, his eyes on the glass in his hand, the liquid softly sloshing around, the unknown contents scaring me even more than the satirized smile that lingers around the corner of Nathan's lips, the looks making my stomach churn, dread pooling at the bottom of my stomach, all alone as I face the subject of my nightmares lately.

   As much as I try to forget, I have never been able to shake the feeling of his slimy hands trying to claim our body as his. I can't help but remember the feeling of disgust and pain I felt when Benny told Jace I didn't want him.

   "We'll it's a good thing it isn't a love potion then." He tells me slyly , and my stomach churns in fear at the sinister look in his eyes, the triumph in his eyes promising something that will do nothing but cause even more pain in my life that he'd already managed to do by himself. "You're exactly right, since you found your Mate, a love potion wouldn't work on you." He answers, his smile creeping me out, knowing he shouldn't be happy about what he just said.

   "Go find another poor soul to brainwash." I tell him, my voice shaking, but firm.

   He raises a brow before laughing, shaking his head at me, and I stiffen, waiting for him to make a move at me again, but he stays still, though his eyes stay glued to me, making me need a shower, just the feel of his gaze of me feeling slimy.

    "You just don't get it do you?" He asks me, and I want to cry, and yell, and spit at him, and call him all sorts of names, and maybe, I want Jace to go all out and make sure he never bothers anyone again.

   My eyes water at the direction of my thoughts, but I get now why Jace is so willing to be violent. Sometimes it's the only way to ensure your family's safety. And family is all that we have, even if it is a little makeshift at the moment.

  Just as I begin to calm myself, Nathan's voice cuts through the internal peace, planting anxiety in my chest.

    "You're not going anywhere, and by the time you do, it'll be too late. I may not be able to make you fall in love since you met your Mate, but if you forgot about your Mate... well, what's stopping you from being with me just like you wanted." He tells me, and my eyes glue to the blue filled vile in his hands, my lips quivering in fear, knowing that he's telling the truth but wishing he wasn't.

   Hes going to make me forget about Jason.

   My breathing gets short, and my chest tightens more, tears springing in my eyes, and a slow sadistic smile spreads along his face making me want to tear him apart, hating everything about the stupid human.

    I growl low at him, and I watch in satisfaction as he takes a cautious step back, his face the picture of worry.

   Nathan's face hardens again before he slides the vile back into his pocket. "I'll have to wait until your mom is gone so I can take care of her, and then it'll just be me and you." He mumbles to himself, his plans growing in insanity, but his attention isn't even on me when he leaves, my chest aching in my chest, and I feel the pull and temptation to just give in and give up.

    But the thought of Jace's smile, and kind words of Ryan stay at the front of my mind, telling myself that if I'm going to be forced to forget the person that loved be before he was allowed to, I want my last thoughts of Jace and Ryan to be of the things that remind me of why I love them.

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I can't believe that this book is going to end soon! Ahhh!! So I think this is chapter number 5 i just completed and this sucks bc I really wanted to do ten chapters but I guess I write faster when the sun is out lol.

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