Dirty Little Secret

Thoughts and Knocking

Nicolas' POV

     It's been four days since we all said we would go to the ski trip, and all we have been doing is planning, talking and figuring out what we will do.

    We go the paperwork and permission slips for the next day, and we figured out the sleeping arrangements.

    Even though it made me and Nathan a little sad, I told him that my sister and brother wanted to room together since it was our first troop outside of our family. So it's going to be Clary and Luis in one room and me and Jason in the other in the suite.

    I find myself biting my lip a little at the thought, not knowing what to think about it. Our monthly is in a week, and I can already feel the difference.

    Whenever I get close to Jason or I am right beside him, I can feel the sparks harder and my spine tingles with the smell of him.

    It makes me feel bad because I don't think he likes me in that way, and I feel dirty when I think about wanting to get closer to him. My cheeks stain red at just the thought, but I try not to think about it as I sit on my bed on a Friday night.

    Even today, when I had went in Jason's room to sit on his bed while he looked over some things on his phone, I caught myself brew a thing in his deep scent, and my body.... my dick started to get hard. I told him at I was tired and ran out of the room before the arousal could get inside my scent, but the fact that Jace is starting to effect my body feels so wrong. But I think I like it.

    I hide my face in my hands and sigh to myself sadly as I think about how wrong I am.

    'We should walk into Jason's room with no pants on.' Benny tells me, trying to convince me to go for it but I just away at home and shake my head.

   'No, Benny. He doesn't want to do nasty things  with me.' I tell him and he sighs but doesn't say anything else. I close my eyes and try to fall asleep again, but the sheet are starting to annoy my skin and I find myself wanting the warmth of Jason's body and the smell of pine and leather.

    I open my eyes and see that only twenty minutes have passed and finally give in, hoping, with red cheeks, that I can control myself even in these pre-heat moments.

    I grab my favorite blanket and wrap it around my shoulders before I walk towards the door on our wall and raise my hand to knock on it. Only a second passes before its being swung open and I find a tired but crazed looking Jason standing on the other eso de of the door, his head leaning against his arm thats settled on the door frame.

   "I was trying to let you come to me. But fuck it was getting hard." He whispers, his words only meant for me and I close the blanket around my cheeks to hide their head as he pulls on it to tug me into his room, closing the door behind us before we walk towards the bed. "You can uh.,. you can sleep here tonight. I can set an alarm." He tells me, and I hear hope in his voice making me want to do my happy dance, and Benny actually does.

    "Okay." I whisper and he grins and has a sigh of relief before he tugs the blanket and lays down, leaving space for me to lay down beside him, leaving a few inches of space between us.

    I feel one of his hands reach out to grab mine under the blanket and I lay to face him, snuggling up with the cool blanket to my nose and he doesn't say anything, just lays there and looks at me as I do.

    It doesn't take long for our breathing to fall into synch and when I turn into our heart beats, I almost want to squeal in surprise when I see then that are almost in synchronized, only half a second off from one another. 'That means you're perfect for each other, even before you complete the bond.' Benny tells me proudly and I try not to smile like a crazy person as I look into Jason's dark eyes.

     "You look so different to me now than before." He whispers and I lower the blanket from my moth and look at him in confusion.

     "Different?" I ask him, not sure if I should be happy or sad and he laughs and nods his head.
  
    "Not different bad. It's like before there was a film of something over my eyes and now it was removed. You're eyes, I always thought they were hazel, but they're so much more than that. You're skin is so smooth and silky. It's weird." He tells me, shaking his head as if he thinks I don't understand but with red cheeks I squeeze the bigger hand holding mine.

      "I like it." I whisper and he smiles to me but doesn't respond. And for a few hours the two of us just sit there and stare at each other until sleep grabs the both of us and pulls us under.

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A little gift for me gaining 8 pounds which I'm still very happy about. Maybe I should get up around 6 or so and get some writing done. I wouldn't mind that... we'll see.

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