Dirty Little Secret

Confusion and Betrayal

Jason's POV

    When we get home, Nick is quick to get out of the car, and by the time Clary and I get into the house, he's already upstairs.

     I sigh to myself as I think about maybe Luis was right.

     Maybe I haven't been fair to Nick, but I just.... I can't even stomach the idea of looking into his eyes. I can't even think about how to explain why I feel the way I do, the only conflicting emotions within me is how bad I would fuck Nick over if he was truly my Mate.

     This whole situation is fucked up.

      'You need to talk to him." Ryan tells me, his words on repeat as he tries to get me to hurry up and speak to Nicolas, but I ignore him as I have all day and decide to go on a run to clear my head first.

     I peak my head into the living room and find my dad chilling on the couch, a book in his lap and a beer in hand as he reads, the evenings and early mornings his favorite time to do so. "Dad." I call and he looks over at me with a smile as he sets his book down to give me his attention.

      "I'm going on a run towards the river in the east." I tell him and I can see that it means a lot that I tell him and mom where I'm going now more often than not, and it's usually only into the forest in our back yard.

     "Alright son. Be back in two hours to check in." He says and I don't get anger about it as I used to.

     I've learned that I can be a dangerous person and that there are people like me out in the world, and if our two bubbles collide it'll be hell for all parties involved. So I know for the safety of everyone that my dad wants me to check in every few hours so I don't give me shit about it, just a nod as I walk past him to the back door. I open it and walk out into the afternoon sun and in no time, my dark coat of fur is a blur through the trees.

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     I come back into the clearing of our back yard and shake out my fur to get most of the leaves out as my body heaves from running the three miles back to the house at full speed.

    I'm getting faster.

     I plop down into the grass as I catch my breath and no more than a minute later, I see dad peaking through the window and when we sees me he gives me a wide smile and a nod making me chuckle to myself at his proud expression.

     After a few minutes, I shift back into my human form and make my way towards the hour, my body the good kind of sore from after a good workout.

     I open the back door and come inside, closing the door behind me as I walk further into the room.

      "Hey dad." greet and this time he doesn't look up form his book that he's reading though he does answer.

       "Good run?" He asks me and I nod as I grab some water that sitting by the door, room temp tute best for your body and the best tasting.

        "New speed." I tell him after I drown half the bottle and he congratulates me as I walk past him and i'll the stairs. I feel my heart pins as I think about the conversation that I'm going to have to have with Nick.

     While I ran, I made sure that I thought about every possible outcome to make sure things got done right and nothing happened.

     I walk into the hallway and go towards Nicks room before I walk past it to the end of the hall, my hands rising to place themselves on the back of my head as I blow out a month full of air. Fuck why is this shit so difficult.

      Ok my second try I stop at the door, but I'm unable to bring myself to actually knock on his door, not quite sure if I remember any resemblance of a plan rhat I claimed to have earlier.

     One my last try I reach out and knock on the door before I turn the handle and step into the room, only to find it empty.

    With a frown and a little bit worried, I travel to my moms room, and knock softly on the door as I wait for permission to enter. "Come in." She calls and I do, expecting to see Nick on the bed but he's no where to be found. "Hey, Jace. What's up?" She asks trying to be cool and I barely hold back from snapping my teeth at her in impatience even if she is my mom.

     'Mate comes first.' Ryan reminds me and I so kindly shove him out the forefront of my mind.

     "Mom, where's Nick?" I ask her, trying not to seems suspicious.

     "He went out with a friend! Can you believe that? Some boy named Nathan picked him up about twenty minutes ago. They're going to the movies and a milkshake." She tells me and I nod before I close the door very fucking carefully.

     So that pencil bitch took Nick out for dinner.

     My head it almost empty as I take a shower and get dressed, making sure to tuck my scent mask into my pocket as I pull on one of my hoodies, my favorite one missing. I jog downstairs and stop at the living room where dad is still reading.

    "Hey dad. I'm going to go get some ice cream. I'll be back."

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ohhhhh shit what do you think it's gonna happen next? I love Jason and Ryan so much!

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