Dirty Little Secret

Jealousy and Listening

Jason's POV

     As soon as I see who it is waiting outside of the door with my mom, I get out of the chair ny the desk and make my way towards the door, sliding past both of them and heading downstairs to the kitchen.

     'You're jealous.' Ryan tells me, though his tone isn't mocking.

     'Yeah, no shit,' I snarl at him reaching into the case of water to grab a bottle and I immediately start drinking form it, trying to stop my hands from forming into fists.

     'Why?' Ryan asks me and for such a smart wolf, he can be a little dense some times. Or better said, painfully optimistic.

     'Nathan can give the one thing to Nick right now that I can't. He can give him a normal, sweet chance at love that won't require hiding and second guessing. It will be easy and free and soft. He couldn't even say that he didn't like Nathan when I asked him, and we both know rhat Nathan ain't here for simply pure reasons. He life's Nick and he might have the power to take him from me.' I tell him, bike riding in my throat as I think about having to let him go.

    Because I will.

    If he asked me to, if he needed me to, I would let him go so he could get the safe, easy love that he deserves. And he does, Nick deserves everything in the world and at this moment , I can't give it to him.

    So if he likes him, I have to give him up.

     'Some times you're too selfless for your own good.' Ryan tells me but he doesn't argue against me.

      'For someone who's been forced to do thing all of his life because of who he is, I will give him the chance to chose who he wants to be with. It's the least I can do.' I tell him and he doesn't say anything back as I take my water and go back upstairs.

      As much as I hate the idea of them together, I refuse to leave them alone.

      At least not completely.

     I open my door to my room and head inside, sitting on my bed and setting my head against the head board before I close my eyes and let my ears range out so that the muffled noise behind me turns into voices I can understand.

      "I had a lot of fun with you went we went to the movies." Nathan says, and for my sanity I'm grateful that he sounds like he's on the other side of the room, taking up the same silent I had when I was in there.

      "I had fun too. I don't really get to go places like that. It was nice to get out of the house." Nick says , his voice softer than usual with his cold sticking to his throat and I want to make him some tea and watch him drink it to calm down the possessive urge within me thats growing by the day.

      'Our Monthly will be here soon.' Ryan reminds me and I flinch away from the words and continue to listen to the conversation so close, but so far away from me.

     "Maybe we could go out again? Just the two of us, I saw this really fun trampoline place in the way here." Nathan says and I feel my nose flare at the thought of them on another date, but I keep quiet just as Nick does until Nathan speaks up again "I'm sorry am I asking too soon? I didn't mean to upset you. Maybe I should go." He says.

      "No!" Nick calls out as I hear footsteps begin to walk towards the door. Here's a shifting on the bed and Nick coughs before he speaks up again, his voice drained. "You don't have to go. I'm just a little confused."

      "About?" Nathan asked but his voice sounds a litttle bit wary.

      "Why do you want to take me placed? Why are you really here? Is it because I'm an Omega?" He asks and my heart breaks to think that he doesn't think anyone would even want to be his friend she cause of his status as a wolf.

      "No offense Nick but I don't know or care about anything when it comes to wolf status. I just want to take you out." He says before he speaks up again. "I know you haven't found your Maye yet, but maybe I can sort of be there until you do." He says and I feel my heart stop when there isn't an immediate no.

     "Uh can we talk about this when I'm not sick, please?" Nick asks and I just lay there stunned, not sure what to think, or even what to do.

    'This is good, Jace. Nathan can be our failsafe so that no one knows that we're his Mate.' Ryan tries to tell me but I can't listen to him right now and tune out of the conversation, sliding down until I'm laying on my back before I turn and curl up on my side.

    Because it's just like I thought. Just like I feared, Nathan is offering the one thing I can't give him, and I know, if he asks, I won't be able to tell him no.

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