Dirty Little Secret

Birthday and Shock

Nicolas' POV

   "Promise?" I ask him, my lip wobbling sofyly as I wait for the second to run out of time. I can feel Benny whimpering inside my head, my wolf even more scared than I am.

    This time though, he doesn't go away, but instead waits with me as we wait, the anxiety in our body reaching dangerous levels as I ball my fists up and squeeze them nervously.

    "Promise." Comes his answer and I'm able to stay calm as I feel the clock strike twelve.

     At first, I don't even feel anything, and I breath a happy sigh of relief, but when I go to breath in, my senses are smacks with the smell of pine and leather. The scent, while some what familiar also feel so different than before.

   I frown since my mind can't make sense of it, and open my eyes, only to lock my gaze with Jason'a his chocolate brown eyes on me, his hand halfway outstretched as he frowns, his head shaking slowly as he stares at me. I try to comprehend what's going on not understanding it until Benny finally speaks up. 'Mate.' He whispers as of in awe and my head snaps back to Jace.

    "You?" Hes the first to speak up, his voice so much more clear than before, deep and soft, the velvet on his tone making my spine shiver, though a frown is quick follow.

    "Mate." I didn't mean to make the word fall form my lips but it does and I watch as Jason recoils form the word, his frown heavy as he keep staring at me, no other emotion in his eyes other than fear and... disgust.

     "Nick we're brothers." He tells me and my brain, that was still stuck on the fact that I found my Matw so fast finallt begin to catch up.

    "No." I whimper, tears coming to my eyes as Benny tried to push at me to get to Jason and Ryan, barely able to hold him back as I begin crying, tears making my vision blurry. "No Mate." I push against the floor, trying to get away from him and this sick sick joke that the stupid Goddess pushed on me.

    'Nick, he's Mate. Go to him.' Benny tries to convince me, but I don't let him, curling into myself as I watch those horrible emotions shine in Jason's eyes.

    "No, no. This has to be a mistake. You can't be my Mate. I can't be your Mate." He says and the words feel like tiny slices along my skin making me coil away from the words and whine, my tears flowing heavier at the words coming form his mouth, hating myself and him and most of all the moon lady that mom was right about all
along.

    "Stop." I beg Jason to stop saying those words, the power of them cutting deeper into my akin as if preparing me for the Rejection to come.

     I know it's coming.

     And the thought that not only was my Mate a sick joke, but the fact that I now have to get Rejected or do it to him causes my breathing to get locked inside my throat. I can feel myself begin to panic, whimpers falling form my throat in absolute terror as I push myself heavier against the wall, my sons coming out choked as I struggle to get air. My hands come up to my hair and I pull at the strains softly, looking for something to ground me.

     I can vaguely hear a voice talking to me but it starts to get further and further away as I can't get anything into my body, panic seizing my chest as I begin to see dark spots, body shaking harshly. Just as I think I'm about to pass out, I feel hands on me.

    Hands grab my around my waist and pull me into a chest, warm and solid and my head is pressed against it, the soft thud of a heart resting beneath my ears as I sit there. m

   At first nothing happens but when a hand falls to my back and begins rubbing soft familiar circles I can feel my breathing finally being able to settle enough for me to grab some much needed air.

     I can feel my mouth moving but I can't hear what I'm saying, blood rushing through my head as I try to come down form my panic enough to tune back into the world. My nose finds a neck and I suck down greedy gulps of the scent, dark and soothing. I melt into the hold and sigh to myself until i finallt hear what I'm saying.

    "You said you wouldn't leave. Don't leave. Please don't leave please." My voice is barely a whisper, Benny nothing more than a shadow of my mind.

    Three people in this room and only one voice, begging not to be left alone.

    And as I mumble my pleads and my tears continue to fall down my face, I realize that this is the first time in my life that Jason hasn't reassured and promised me that he wouldn't leave.

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I low key want to sleep the day away but i REALLY want to finish these last 7 chapters. I'll let myself take a nap after 3 more chapters. I'm so hyped for this weekend guys.

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