Dirty Little Secret

Crying and Praise

Benny's POV

    When Nicky pushes me forward, I feel nervous, my eyes coming open softly as I curl into myself, asking softly away front Ryan.
 
    Before I can get too far, I'm yanked back into his chest, his aura strong and heavy, and it makes me suck in a big breath before I bare my neck to him and shut my eyes, my tears gathering behind my eyelids, waiting for him to yell at me like last time.

   But instead, I feel a nose rubbing against my neck, a soft kiss following the trail of his nose, and it makes my frown and shiver before I open my confused gaze.

    I finally Ryan looking down at me, his black eyes soft, though his eyes are so focused on me, it almost makes me forget why I was even scared in the first place. The last time we had time completely to ourselves, he told me how bad of a wolf I am because of how I wasn't being good to Nicky. And I left him again when the human was being mean to him.

    I feel my eyes start to tear up, and a whimper passes my lips, just knowing that Ryan won't want me anymore.

    "Hush, pup. Don't cry, little one. You did so good." He tells me, his voice calm and soothing and the sound distracts me from what he's saying.

     "But- But." I can't even form a coherent thought as I look at him, my eyes still glazed over with tears and he chuckles, deep and soft but I continue, not knowing what he's heard, but not liking he idea of false praise. "But, I left Nicky alone with him. I t-tried to stick around and make sure he was okay, b-but I couldn't and I left him all alone and I'm sorry." My words get broken up by sniffles, knowing that telling on myself will make Ryan mad at me but he still doesn't.

   His hands touch the tears staining my cheeks and hawks his head.

    "You did stay. You stayed longer than usual. You tried to be there. You did a good job, pup. I'm proud of you. And Nicky is happy that you did too. No one expected things to get perfect over night. You did a good job little one. We're all proud of you for trying." He says and I sniffle and look up at him.

    "Really?" I ask, unable to stop my lip form wobbling.

     "Really. Now come here." Before I can every think about moving on my own, Ryan gathers me in his arms and pulls me closer to his body, tucking my head beneath his chin, and I snuggle closer, finally feeling safe.

    Finally being where I'm supposed to be.

    "I've missed you right here." He tells me, his voice soft, and I don't answer him, just breath in his delicious warm scent of pine and leather.

     I rub my cheek against his after lifting my head, and he lets me softly scent him, masking his own smell with mine so that people know that he belongs to me. Me, me, me. "Thank you." I tell him quietly, squeezing him and letting him raise his hands to embed them in my hair softly.

     "Nothing to thank me for." He says, and I know he's just being nice.

     Before I can answer, I hear the door open downstairs, and I get scared, a whine forcing it's way out of my throat, and I hide into Ryan's neck, but hes already up and pushing me on the bed before standing in front of me, his teeth getting long as he growls at the door.

    Foot steps come upstairs and all I can think about is Nathan coming and trying to take me from my happy again, but before I can panic, Nicky is there. 'Breathe. Ryan's got you. I got you. You're okay.'

    His voice is soft and soothing and the sound of it is enough to calm me down enough to hear who it is in the hallway.

     "It's just us!" I hear Clarissas voice and the sound of it makes me breathe out a sigh of relief, knowing that it's not the one boy who's face I never want to see ever again. Ryan finally relaxes and comes to sit back on the bed and pull me into his lap just as the door opens to reveal Clary, Luis and Nya.

     "Why are you here?" Ryan asks as he holds me closer to him and his voice doesn't sound mean, but you can tell that the group isn't welcomed here.

     "We came to see what the hell happened. You can't just have that sort of emotional surge in the middle of school, run away, and then just think none of us was going to show up. Fucking idiot. Eliza would have my ass." Luis mutters clearly a little annoyed.

      " I told you to wait until after school." Ryan says and Clary snorts and rolls her eyes. "Clary control Rachel before I put her down like the mutt she is."

    I watch as Clary's eyes turn black for a split and her mouth opens with a smirk along the lips.

    "I would like to see you try shit head." Rachel teases and I try not to giggle but it's always been funny when Rachel and Ryan go at it.

     "Will someone just say what the fuck happened?" Nya yells getting impatient and the room gets quiet before they turn to Ryan and I, and he shields me from view and begins to explain, and I try to hide as the dominance rises in the room.

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It's so obvious that i wrote this when i was feeling small and soft. I like this chapter though.

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