Dirty Little Secret

Comfort and Crying

Nicolas' POV

      I peak over at Ryan, his black eyes already on me softly.

     Growing up, Ryan was always the softer version of Jason, or maybe calmer would be a better word. While Jace is hotheaded and lethal, Ryan has always been chill and patient, though he can be just as dangerous.

     "Plan?" I ask him, even though my emoji tan are still reeling from the information he told me about both him and Jason.

     "Let's be honest, none of us know what the hell we're going to do or how this is going to work. But we can't ignore the Bond forever. It's going to keep pulling us together the longer we're apart. But I don't want people to look at us different. I don't think anyone wants a repeat of last year." He says referring to when Jace almost went feral protecting Clary. "So whatever happens, we have to keep our Bond a secret. And I will leave when I planned and you can come with me. We just have to hold out until winter break like we said."

     I pull my knees up to my chest on the rock,  lot of feelings going through me as I try to think  about it.

     "But we're brothers, and Jace doesn't want me and, and Benny isn't my wolf anymore." I sniffle and Ryan flinches away.

      "Don't say that." He scolds me and I lower my eyes in apology. "We will figure it out. The Mate bond is supposed to come before anything, apparently even blood. You are my Mate. We are Mates."

     I look up into his black eyes and I don't answer, still not sure and he sighs before he pushed a piece of hair out of my face.

    "You humans are strange creatures." He tells me with a crooked sad grin and I feel my ears turn red. "Can I talk to Benny?" He asks me and I shrug.

      "I don't know." I tell him but Benny decides that he wants to talk to him, his conscious pushing at control and my chest stings a little bit to know that he was there all this time and don't have anything to say. "Yeah." I mutter out loud, falling into the background, my Omega mind exhausted from all the emotions that have been drowning me for the past week.

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Benny's POV

      I open my eyes, whimpering when the moon light hits them as they slowly adjust to the world. When I turn my head, I find Ryan sitting next to me, and I squeal as I throw myself at him.

     My Mate catches me in his arms, his chuckle heavy in my ear and it makes me shiver and sigh happily as I settle in his lap, happy that I am finally where I'm supposed to be so Ryan can take care of me.

      "How are you doing?" He asks me, his hand coming up to rub my back softly and it makes me shift giggling at how much it tickles.

     "Happy." I reply, and he laughs.

     "That's good." He tells me and he lets he be for a few more minutes before he pulls me away from him and sets me back in my spot. My eyes well up as I go to sit with him again but a hand stops me. "No. Not yet."

     With a confused frown I sit back down, hugging my body softly. "Why?"

     "Because we need to talk, Benny. What in the world did you do to Nicolas?" He asks me, and he frowns at me and I realize that's hes upset with me making tears come into my eyes again and I turn away from him, because it's not my fault.

      "He made you and Jace hate us and not want to be our Mates. He didn't go to you when I told him to and now it's too late." I say, knowing that Jason will never want us the way I want him to.

     I always knew Jason was mean but I didn't think Nick would be too.

     "If Nick didn't leave Jason alone, Jace would have been even more upset for not having his space. Whatever my human is feeling isn't Nicolas' fault and you shouldn't have blamed him And you shouldn't have shut him out. You're both Omegas, you can't leave each other like that."

     There are four ways to be an Omega. Be a hybrid between a wolf and human, have an Omega wolf, have a shy/soft human, or have and Omega wolf and a soft human.

    Nick and I are the softness more sensitive pairing that our family ago has seen, and it makes our family even more protective of us. We've learn from day one that we're supposed to depend on each other and be there for each other but Nick is always mad at me for no reason.

      "How is it my fault when Nicolas is the one always getting mad at me? Now I get mad at him and I'm mean?" I ask him, tearing welling in my eyes at how unfair it is.

      "You leave him to deal with the hard parts of life by himself all the times. Especially when he's in danger. You're supped to go through those things together. You're not supposed to make him deal with it all." He tells me and even though his voice is soft, his words are mean.

     "But hes stronger than me!" I tell him with tears in my eyes.

      "And still an Omega. Stop shutting him out and start supporting him. You're my Mate, but he is too." He tells me and I turn away from him, staring all around us at the trees, not wanting to talk to him anymore because everyone is against me.

     And here I thought things would finally get better.

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So we're finally coming to a pass where everyone is talking to each other. what do you think will be sad next? what happens next?

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