Dirty Little Secret

Knocking and Fear

Jason's POV

"Where do you want to go?" I ask Nick, the two of us sitting up on my bed, my fingers in the hands of Nick as he plays with them quietly as we talk.

The thought of talking to Nick and touching him, still makes my stomach churn but not as much as it did earlier this week and I find myself craving it and more of his touch though I keep those words buried inside, not sure what to do with them and not sure how I, or how Nick would feel about them.

Is instead I relish the feeling of his hands holing mine, playing with them softly as he tilts his head to the side to think, his long eyelashes brushing against his cheeks as he does.

"I don't know. Kaulike has always been our home." He tells me and he's right thought I don't say anything. "What if we go to New Unity City?" He offers.

"Maybe. They're really open to almost everything like we are, but it's going to be a lot more bad people. They all like to go to the big city's and cause trouble. And it's colder there." I tell him, not wanting to dissuade him only meaning to warn him of what we could be getting ourselves into.

Before I can say anything else, there's a knock on my door, and Nick and I look at each other, me trying to figure out how the hell we missed someone coming in, and Nick looking like hes about to pass out.

"Yes?" I call our, knowing any sudden movement between the two of us would only make things more suspicious.

"Mom called and says they're heading back. They're coming to check on Nick.... so he should probably go back... to his room." Clary says and I just sit there, trying to figure out how to deny it, the three of us silent until Ryan speaks up.

'Tell her to come in.' He tells me, his own body pacing in nerves and I do just that, though my voice sounds no where close to as confident as his.

When Clary walks in, my hands are back in my own lap, but Nick and I are still sitting close to each other when the door clicks behind her.

Before we can say anything she begins pacing around my room, her eyes not looking at us, her brown hair pulled back into a bun as she begins to rant a little bit though I'm only a little sure she's talking to us. "I came through the window because I thought they were here already but they weren't." She says as a way of explanation on why we didn't hear anyone come in.

None of us say anything thought until she stops and turns towards us.

"You need to be more careful. I heard you guys the first time, on Nicks birthday. I came out to tell him happy birthday because I set an alarm. And the again after the date, Jason you were in his room and now he's in yours. There's three other people in this house other than you guys and you need to be more careful." She says and all the words she's saying is fucking with my head.

But for once it's Nick that says something. "You knew? But, you kept on talking about Nathan.. and... and you kept sending him here." He says and I turn back towards her.

And to my surprise she places her hands on her hips and glares at me catching me off guard. "This asshole doesn't know how to react on any emotion except anger. He needed to get jealous otherwise he would have talked his way out of being with you." She says and my face burns as I try to pretend she's wrong.

"Aren't you mad? Disgusted? Pissed?" I ask her instead, not understanding how calm she is about this and it's her turn to blush.

"If you know what kind of stuff I've read you would be amazed." And my eyebrows raise as I try to figure out what the hell to say to that. "I was shocked at first and then it made sense."

"Why do people keep saying that?!" I ask, throwing up my hands and I turn to Nick with a fake glare as he giggles, his eyes looking at everything but me when I turn towards him.

"I have a friend that could make your rooms sound proof and if you want, she can make a disappearing door between your rooms." Clary says and I shake my head.

"Too many people know about this already." I say and she cringes making me groan in frustration. "Clary you already told her?"

"I'm sorry I though she could help. Just think about it. Mom and dad will be home soon." She says before she makes her way out of my room and I groan before I place my hands in my hair, thinking about if this will be the day that I finally kill my sister.

"Jace?" A small voice calls out to me just as a hand pulls at my sleeve and I pull my hands down to peek at Nick who has red cheeks and can't meet my eyes.

"Yeah?"

"I want a door." He says quietly and my eyebrows raise as I try to figure out what the hell my life has come to.

"Fine. We'll get a door."

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