MY FATE

Chapter 58- It's Fine to Feel Frustrated

"Can you train me?"

Hiroki looked at her in shock.

Mito," If you were a national champion and also got in that college, you must have something in you. See, you don't have to train me everyday. Just Saturday and Sunday is enough. For at least two hours each day. Can you do this favor on me?"

Hiroki," Well, I don't have any problem in training you but I left swimming like almost seven years ago. I don't think I will be able to teach you that nicely."

"Then first train me for one day if I liked it we can continue, right?"

Hiroki smiled slightly," If you say so."

Mito's eyes shone," Okay then!" And she ran back inside with excitement.

But Hiroki couldn't help thinking why she wanted his help when she could have best professional swimmers to train her. There must be some reason that she asked him to train her.

He was sitting their wondering this when someone patted on his knees. He looked down and saw Ai looking at him with doe eyes. Hiroki smiled at her and asked," Hello princess. Do you want something?"

"Aahh! Ms.Ai! You shouldn't run off like that! And you are not allowed to be near the lake! Master will scold me if he sees you here!", a young nanny came running towards them.

When she saw Hiroki sitting there, she was shocked. She immediately bowed her head in respect and fear.

Hiroki asked Ai," Did you run away from your nanny?"

Ai held onto Hiroki's leg more tightly and hid her face from him.

Hiroki sighed slightly and sat near her," Ai, you shouldn't run away like that, okay? Aren't you a good girl?"

Ai nodded her head. 

The young nanny trembled in fear," Sir, I am so sorry! This is all because of my incompetence! Please forgive me!"

Hiroki noticed that this nanny was over reacting which was completely unnecessary. He ignored her and asked Ai," Do you want to play with me?"

Ai looked at him with stars in her eyes and nodded eagerly.

Hiroki chuckled," Then let's go in, shall we?"

Ai grabbed Hiroki's arm and dragged him towards her playroom followed by the nanny. They both played for really long time. And due to spending so much time with each other, Ai started talking with him freely.

It was almost 6.30 in evening when Itsuki came in playroom to check on Ai. He was surprised would be an understatement. He said happily," Oh! Ai is playing with her uncle! That's amazing."

Ai replied back enthusiastically," No! Wilh my favoulite uncle!"

Hiroki chuckled at her response and greeted Itsuki. Itsuki sat near Hiroki and said," She doesn't let anyone inside her playroom except me. Not even Kai is allowed in here. But she let you in that easily, huh. She really has grown fond of you."

Hiroki," Even I have grown fond of her. She is a lovely girl."

Itsuki sighed. Hiroki looked at Itsuki's tired and defeated face and asked," Is something bothering you? You can talk with me."

Itsuki said tiredly," It's nothing. Just this and that."

Hiroki frowned," It's definitely not this and that. What's wrong?"

Itsuki said with frustration," No.........It's just I think we had Ian too soon. And after giving birth to him, my health has declined a lot. Due to this I can't pay proper attention to Ai. I think that she is always lonely in this big house.*Sigh*Maybe we should have waited for few more years before having another baby. I am afraid at this rate Ai will start hating us. I really don't know what to do."

Hiroki looked at a tired looking Itsuki and couldn't help pitying him. His parents had also gone through same situation. And he knows the feeling of neglected child. He patted Itsuki's back lightly and said," Right now it must be really hard for you. But trust me, it gets better once you know how to face this situation. And there are so many people who are willing to help you. Mr.Kai is their, Mrs.Kamazura is their, I am also ready to help you in any possible way. And you are an amazing mother just the way you are. Even after going through such a traumatic incident, you didn't take a rest and just went on going so that your children won't be neglected. What have you done is a really amazing thing, Mr.Itsuki."

Itsuki's eyes teared up after hearing this. After giving birth, he started feeling so much lonely, guilty and sad. He thought that he wasn't able to protect his son and now his daughter was suffering because of his incompetence. Kai was suffering mentally because of him. He felt really useless, a failure. Because of him, his family was falling apart. He couldn't help crying out his frustrations infront of Hiroki," I........I am really incompetent. Bec-because of me*sob* my family is falling apart. I am just a failure in my husband's and children's life. I wasn't even able to protect my son from danger. How am I gonna protect this two precious*sob* beans for rest of my life? Hiroki, I really don't know what is happening with me! I think that because of me everything is going to fall apart. Our happiness, our family...... everything."

Hiroki hugged Itsuki tightly and patted his back. He said," Remember this brother, none of this is your fault. What happened to you wasn't your fault and you are not responsible for anything bad that is happening in your life. You are a human too and it's fine to feel frustrated. But don't blame yourself for any of this, okay? Also, try talking with Mr.Kai. Communication is must. Don't bottle up your feelings. You know this very well than I do."

Itsuki hugged him back and sobbed. Ai saw her momma crying and couldn't help crying too. She also hugged Hiroki and started crying while saying Ai is sorry, mommy don't cry. Hiroki patted both of their backs until they stopped crying.

Kai who just returned back from office was trying to find Itsuki when he came across playroom and saw his husband and daughter crying and hugging Hiroki. He was extremely shocked and ran towards them.

He asked in worry," What happened? Why are you both crying? Did I do something wrong?"

Itsuki let go of Hiroki and hugged Kai very tightly as if his life was depending on it. Hiroki indicated Kai that he was leaving with Ai. Kai nodded back in response.

Hiroki went out of playroom with Ai. He crouched on her level and wiped her tears. He said soothingly," Ai, are you hungry? Want to eat with me?"

Ai nodded back in response.

Character Introduction

Ai Kamazura

Age: 4y.o.

Is the first born of Kai and Itsuki Kamazura. Is a lovely girl. She adores Hiroki a lot. Loves her little brother. Has some arrogance due to Kai.