SEE YOU IN HEAVEN [FANTASERIES #2]

Chapter Thirteen: Assurance

CHAPTER THIRTEEN: 

ASSURANCE 

CASPER suddenly appeared. I wasn't aware but I just looked up when someone's holding my hand, stopping me to hurt myself. He looks pissed but I just avoided his gaze. My grip on the cutter tightened until I felt a sting on my palm.

"Nemesis!" He shouted at me, but I revoked my other hand, still ignoring him.

"What the fuck are you doing?!" He hissed at me.

"I..._ I closed my eyes. "I want to be alone."

I saw my hand bleeding, and blood streaming down on my table but I couldn't care less. I just watched it. The more that I saw the blood dropping from my hand, and wrist, I feel so relieved. I couldn't feel the physical pain, or I was just numb to feel it, but I know that the pain inside me is slowly fading.

"Sa tingin mo gagawin ko 'yon?" He still sounded so pissed. Kinuha niya ang blade sa kamay ko pero hinigpitan ko lang iyon, causing another wound.

"Bitawan mo nga 'yan!" He tried to take it away from me.

"Leave." I can't show any emotions anymore. I'm starting to feel numb again and all I want is silence.

"No."

"Leave!" I shouted at him. He was surprised by my voice. He stilled for a while, but he just frowned at me. I was calmly sitting on my chair, still staring at the droplets of blood. All I want is to stare at it with silence until I'm finally calm.

"Damn it." He whispered pulling me up from my chair.

I glanced at him, resisting but he just shook his head pulling me inside the CR. He washed my wounds, and my blood slowly washed with water. All I can do was to stare at it while Casper cleans it. After he was done, he took out a small towel, and softly dried my wounds. It wasn't that deep so it's fine to wipe it with cloth.

"Stop doing this, Nemesis." His brows still furrowed. He looked at me, and I was looking down at my wounds, but then Casper's stares seem to call me.

I stared at him. Slowly, as our eyes met, his face softened. "Masakit ba?" he asked.

I'm still staring at him for a moment. "W-why are you doing this?" it was almost a whisper.

He smiled and wiped the towel on my nose. "Kasi gusto ko."

I looked down again, but I just decided to turn my back on him, and was about to walk towards my bed but he stopped me. "Are you okay?" he asked.

I swallowed. "I do..."

He sighed. He put the towel on the sink and held my shoulders. "Nemesis Truce."

"Casper, please." I pleaded.

"What's the matter?" he asked again. He held my face so we can face each other. I don't feel awkward so I stared at him too. It's like he's reading me, but I know that my eyes look so tired and...beaten.

Because I am.

There's no way I would tell him. There's no way I would tell anyone about the matter, and everything I've been through. I don't know if I'm a kind of person that holds on the past that's why I'm like this or it's just a part of me that I can't escape but I'm scared. So damn scared.

Memories keep on coming back to me. I just don't want to happen anymore just because I didn't stayed on my place.

I tried to reach out so many times when they asked about my matter, and I was desperate of someone I can lean on, but every time I did, they just left me hanging, making me hope that I can reach them. I just don't want to suffer again.