confusifying | wicked | book 3/3

Elphie

A blood curdling cry shakes the walls of the house, I can tell instantly that it's Bocs.
I run as fast as I can, followed by Glinda into Nessas room, Boc is looming over her bed shaking my sister violently.
"Wake up Nessarose" he sobs, "you have to wake up"
My heart stops for a few seconds, I can't contemplate what's just happened.
No
No
  No
She was fine, just barley half an hour ago she was fine, time seems to stop before Boc cries out again.

I fly into action before I can even forgive Boc for shaking my sister so violently, I cradle her in my arms and feel myself start to cry.
She's left me again.
"Oh Nessa" I sob "you have to stop doing this to me."
I hear Boc and Glinda mutter something to one another as I hold my sister tightly to me.
My ears are ringing with all the crying.
"Nessa I won't let you leave me like this" I explode "it's not fair! Your so cruel!"
I'm so so angry and confused.
My sister can't just do that.
She can't just die without warning.
I hold her tenderly by the shoulders and just cry.
"Elphaba let me hold her!" Boc cries "let me say goodbye"
Glinda whispers something angrily to him and I feel my emotions become too strong.

A strange chill begins to fill the room,
"Elphaba?" Glinda sounds concerned.
I focus all my attention and energy upon my sister.
"Wake up Nessa, please" I mutter.
I continue to focus as the room becomes colder, I feel my sensation building up as I become more and more distressed and dismayed with my sisters passing.
I'm so desperate not to hurt my sisters poor little body with my powers.
I feel the sensation travel out through my core and into my arms, it snakes along my fingers and into my sister, I hear a faint beating sound.
"Nessa please, you don't get to just give up on us!" I cry, tears streaming down my face but my sensation is just as strong.
I focus every ounce of my being, all my energy, everything.
I need my sister, it's not her time.
I don't care about fate.
My face is flooding with emotions, the beating sound grows more steady, it rings beautifully in my ears.
A great wind sweeps round the room despite no window being open, perhaps it's me that it's radiating from, I concentrate harder and my hair is blown about manically and my sisters face becomes shrouded with my glossy tears.
"Oh please don't leave me sister" I shriek as the storm inside the room grows stronger, "I won't let this be your demise sweet, sweet Nessarose."

My sensation, this wind, all my emotions.
It's causing me a great pain, though it must be nothing compared to what my sweet sister has endured this past year, I have to do this, I start to scream, I'm so tired but I can't give up, not now this beating is ringing in my ears, not now there's a chance that she could be okay.
"Elphaba whats happening, what are you doing?" Glinda cries from behind me.
"Elphaba please bring her back to me!" Boc shrieks and I press harder upon my sisters frail shoulders.
Soon some resistance builds up and it becomes harder to maintain my focus, I try and try until finally...

The wind stops, I stop, a bright flash appears before me and I'm thrown to the floor, Glinda rushes to me but Boc rushes to Nessarose.
"Oh Nessa!" He cries "Nessa your awake!"
I hear a croak come from Nessas bed and I breathe a heavy sigh of relief, I've saved my sister.
But at what cost.
Slowly I stand up and Glinda forces me down into the chair beside Nessas bed, she turns to me and relaxed her tense face, tears roll down her cheeks and Boc carefully wipes them away.
"He came back" Nessa whispers shakily "he was in this room, I don't want to be in bed anymore!" She cries.
I lean forward and put my hand on my sisters.
"Nessa you have to, your much too tired." I reply slowly, knowing that she'll hate me afterwards.
"That's not fair!" Nessa cries "I've been in bed for twelve weeks, I can't spend anymore time in bed"
"Nessa" Boc barks tearfully "Nessa you will stay in bed, you will take it slowly and you will listen to your sister"
Nessa looks terrified, Glinda looks very perplexed at Bocs outburst.
"But Boc..."
"No Nessrose, you just died for the second time this week, I'm not letting you die again, I love you too much." Boc turns around to look at me he suddenly hugs me tightly.
"You brought her back" he whispers into my ear "you brought her back to me."

I watch Glinda go and stand beside my sister as Boc slowly leaves the room, Glinda hesitantly places a hand on my sisters chest.
"Glinda what are you doing?" My sister asks, baffled.
"Feeling your heartbeat." Glinda replies "It's good. Your good"
My sister turns her head away, sighing deeply.
"Do you think Bocs okay?" She asks nervously.
"Nessa you just died... again!" I splutter "and all you can think of is Boc, are you not concerned for yourself?"
Glinda sighs pitifully and smiles at my sister.
"I'm sure he's okay Nessa, I can go and check on him if you'd like."
Nessa nods happily and Glinda scampers away to track down Boc.
My sister turns her head to me, the look in her eyes says that she's got something pressing on her mind.
I grip the armrests of this armchair tightly.
"How come I'm not dead?" Nessa asks me suspiciously "I died for the second time, it's clearly fate, why am I still here?"
I swallow hard, theres a lump in my throat that's making the phrase 'eat your words' all the more prevalent.
"I held you nessa, I held you and I begged for you to come back and you did. It's a blessing, try not to overthink it."
I don't mention my powers.
I don't mention them at all.