𝐍𝐘𝐂𝐓𝐎𝐏𝐇𝐘𝐋𝐈𝐀 ࿓ 𝙏. 𝙆𝘼𝙈𝘼𝘿𝙊

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The next day was even more difficult for our protagonist's crush.

He didn't sleep last night AT ALL. The thoughts of you and Muichiro making his mental peace crumble to pieces.

The amount of times during the night while he tossed and turn did he imagine the two kissing, making out, cuddling, or even having sex was way too many for him to count. It was driving him insane..

Now here he was with huge dark circles under his eyes as he sat in a lunch table with Zenitsu, Kanao and Nezuko.

Meanwhile the table beside them was filled with utter chaos as you, Muichiro, Yuichiro, Inosuke, Aoi and Genya sat together.

You were laughing and smiling almost every time Tanjiro glanced your way, making his stomach twist and turn with an unkind feeling in his chest..

It was driving him crazy how you were smiling but with someone else that wasn't him.

"Tanjiro..kun..?" Kanao had whispered as her boyfriend sat up abruptly from his seat, throwing the rest of his unfinished food in the trash and simply walking out of the cafeteria.

Blinking, Kanao frowned with worry as Nezuko did the same. But she already knew the reason towards her brother's behaviour.

Even his grades were dropping because of his lack of rest, making him even more stressed and anxious.

Christ, even his hair was a mess.

"What's going on with Tanjiro..?" Zenitsu finally spoke up, looking at the direction where his burgundy haired friend had went.

Nezuko simply shrugged her shoulders before finishing the rest of her food in a hurry, then sitting up and jogging to where her brother had gone off to.

The blonde sighed before telling Kanao he was going to go sit at the other table. Which she agreed to and did the same.

The two sat together amidst all the chaos, but Zenitsu had easily joined in on the fun by screeching with laughter as Inosuke and Yuichiro argued. Genya even joining in as well just to diss on Yuichiro.

You wheezed before quieting down and finishing the rest of your homemade salmon daikon Giyuu had made for the two of you.

Where are Nezuko and Tanjiro?

The question made you look around, noticing their absence.

That's weird.. Wouldn't Nezu be with Zenitsu?

Shrugging the question off your head, you remained silent the rest of lunch time. Wondering where those two had gone off to.

"(N/n)-chan, can I talk to you for a sec?" Zenitsu had whispered in your ear, and you blink before nodding.

"Sure...? What's going?" you stated as you followed him out of the cafeteria, furrowing your brows. He stopped in a corner before slowly turning towards you, a small and worried smile on his lips before it turned into a frown.

"I—.." he started, but quickly paused as he stammered over his words.

"Zenitsu.. There's no ru—"

"I think—I think it's time to tell you what's going on with... Tanjiro.." your eyes slowly widened while your brows remained furrowed. You were clearly confused.

"..Huh? What did he do now..?" you scoff, crossing your arms against your chest before your eyes widened again from Zenitsu's next words.

"..That's what's going on. I—I think you should try talking to him—"

"Why would I talk to him first when he clearly hasn't even interacted with me at all ever since I confessed to him!" you burst, eyebrows knitted together while your face held a large frown.

"He.. He hasn't spoken to me at all ever since.. It's made me not be able to sleep properly for the last month! He's making me go fucking crazy!" you exclaim, holding your chest harshly as you started to tell your friend how you had been feeling lately.

"Even though you all see me smiling and all happy—I'm still so hurt and confused as to what the fuck I did to make him stop talking to me! I.." you trailed off, staring at your feet now before looking back up at the blonde's brown eyes.

"I thought.. I thought I was one of his best friends.." you mumbled, narrowing your eyes as they clouded a bit with that pain you've been hiding. Zenitsu's eyes widened while his eyebrows furrowed.

"(Y—Y/n)—"

"And you know what?! Maybe that's what we should be. Nothing but strangers, because he sure as hell has been treating me like one!!" you pause as Zenitsu shakily looked past you, making you slowly turn around.

...Ain't no way some cringe, Netflix ass shit just happened to me.

Your eyes widened as they landed on Tanjiro who stood still. His eyes narrowed as they lightly trembled along with his lips.

Nezuko stood protectively beside him, yet when her eyes met your teary ones she softened a bit.

"Tanjiro..kun.." you muttered as you stared at your hands while you fidgeted with them. Your heart beating heavily inside your chest.

He slowly looked up from the ground, and what surprised you was the way his eyes held nothing but fury.

Never have you seen him like this.. And you began to grow scared.

"..Wow. Just wow, (Y/n). That's really what you thought was going through my mind?!" he exclaims, eyebrows furrowing as his hands curled into fists.

"I have no words for you (Y/n). Why would you even think that..? Is that really what you think of me? Is that really what you thought was going on with me?" your eyes slowly widened further as your breath hitched.

You shamefully must admit that this new version of Tanjiro was making you slightly excited..

"Do you see me right now?" your eyes narrowed as you stare at his features.

The huge bags underneath his eyes, his messy hair, the way he wasn't wearing any earrings, his rough hands..

"...Tanjiro.." you whispered as your lips trembled, your hands finding themselves to your lips.

..what happened...?

"Zenitsu told you about what's going on.. And yet you still thought of me that way..? After the amount of times I've tried talking to you normally, but you'd always just push me away.. As if I was some stranger.."

"I—"

"No, (Y/n). Then you go ahead and hangout with all these other guys? On purpose to try and make me jealous?! Well good for you, (Y/n)—because it worked."

You blink as your eyebrows slowly furrowed, lips parting a bit as you listened intently to his words.

"You see these?" he pointed at the eyebags he had. "Then this?" he points at his messy and unbrushed hair.

"That's all the result of your own little game. You've made me feel so fucking miserable.. What's even worse is that you haven't even been doing all these things on purpose!" his voice was laced with venom, making you flinch as he stepped closer to you.

"All this that you've put me through without even realizing had made me realize something. Something about myself, that I had been trying to hold down and hide for as long as I've known you.."

Your eyes widened, immediately did your eyebrows raise from his specific wording.

"And what I had been trying to hide deep inside my heart," he paused, taking a step closer which made take a you step back.

"..Was that I'm madly inlove with you, (Y/n)-chan.."

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