Complicated (Reader Avengers Romance)

Where does that leave me?

Bucky's POV

Once she left I couldn't help the pull that I felt towards Loki's cell. I needed to see him. As I entered the compound, Nat found me. Her hand on my shoulder stopped me in my tracks.
"You're going to see him?" She asked with a guarded look on her face, everyone knew I was not in the best of moods. I nodded at her before she dragged me into the briefing room. The rest of the team sat around the table, the screens showing Loki pacing around his cell. I hated it, seeing him locked up broke me in ways no one will ever understand.

"Buck." Steve took my attention away from the screen. "We need to know what he told her. Something changed when she left that room, you know it did."
I nodded in agreement. Y/N never told me what they spoke about, only that they had spoken. I hadn't pushed her, she was obviously hiding something for a reason, no doubt in an attempt to protect me.

"I don't really care what he said Steve. If we needed to know, she would have told us."

He looked to Fury who nodded at him to carry on. "Look we know you need to see him, all we ask is that you try to get some information out of him. Anything that could help us understand how she got into his mind in the first place. From what Thor told us, him just letting her in wouldn't of been enough."

I thought about what he'd said. If this was true, there was obviously something none of us knew about Y/N, I owed it to her to find out what. I doubted that she even knew what he was hiding at this point. I reluctantly agreed, anything to get them to agree to letting me see him at this point.

After placing an earpiece in my ear I headed down to the man I love. "Don't forget what he says will not be his words." Nat encouraged through my ear.

As I reached his cell he was pacing back and forth, it's all he seemed to do down here. As I stepped into the room he stopped. "I'd know that broody stare anywhere." I kept my face as emotionless as I could. Fighting the urge to open the cell door and pull his lips to mine. I missed the stubborn son of a bitch more than I ever thought I would. "You knew I'd come." My voice as stoic as my face.

The way he looked at me broke my heart, it was the same look he'd given me years ago when he felt nothing towards me. "Let me guess. She left you?" He taunted me. I swallowed the lump in my throat, remembering Y/N's words from the night before.

You are enough for me. You will always be enough for me.

I refused to let my voice give away how much that hurt. I let him carry on talking. "And they sent you down here, to do what? Appeal to my humanity?" The tone of his voice sent shivers down my spine. Not many things scared me, not after Hydra but seeing the man I loved like this, it terrified me. I was supposed to protect him, like I did with Y/N. I'd failed on both accounts.

I could see him watching my face as I stared at him. "We both know that would be a waste of time."
He began walking backwards his arms stretched open. "Then please. Do tell me why you're here." He turned to sit on the bench the other side of his cell. A smile I didn't recognise grew across his face. I kept my emotion as hidden as I could, not many people saw the side of me that was vulnerable, but keeping it hidden from him was hard.

"You showed her something. What was it?"

That sickening smile appeared once again, I clenched my fists, keeping an indifferent look on my face as he taunted me. "You're worried your connection with her isn't enough without me." I wanted so much to burst into that cell and punch him until he came back to me. For now I stood my ground, letting him think he had the upper hand. "Did you really think you'd be enough for her? She will always be drawn to me in ways you could never understand."

I took a small step towards the cell as he stood from his seat. Taunting me as he walked in my direction. "Ignore it Bucky. He's close to giving us what we want to know. Remember it isn't him, not really." I listened to her, I knew I wasn't talking to my Loki. It didn't stop the damage it was doing to my heart, usually Y/N would be able to rectify that, but she'd left. Because of him.

He came up to the glass in front of me, slamming his fist against it in anger. Apparently my lack of response was pissing him off. "She will always come to me, her power will draw her to me."

"And why is that?" I could hear Nat in my ear trying to keep me calm. Not many people knew how insecure I was under the mask I put up but I confided in her a long time ago. She knew this was killing me and her loyalty to Y/N would be what I needed to get me through the hours until she returned.

"Because my mother wanted it to be so. The power that floods through veins? The magic my mother taught me? It flows through hers too."

Bingo. We had what we needed. Without a word I turned and left, turning the earpiece off along the way. I tried to ignore the doubts creeping in, it seemed like everything in the universe wanted her and Loki together. So where does that leave me?

I need a fucking drink.