The connection

Chapter fifty two - I want you

Alex

We drove back in silence, since Chase had brought me here I had no way of getting home without Nate driving me. I fidgeted in my seat feeling embarrassed and uncomfortable about how turned on I'd got at the creek. He literally just touched my arm and I melted like jelly. I glanced over at him, his eyes were straight ahead on the road but a small smile covered his face. God he was loving this. He let out a chuckle

"I'm sorry babe, I really am. Hey I'm all up for being friends if you think you can handle it" he smirked, his eyes never leaving the road ahead.

"I can handle it, just remember to keep you hands to yourself and we'll be fine...and stop calling me babe" I huffed and folded my arms as I looked out the window for a distraction. Why was it when you didn't want to think about something it was all I could think about. I squeezed my eyes shut trying to clear my mind but for some reason all I could think about was him. His lips on mine, his hands on me, how I felt when I finally found my release.

I was jolted sideways by the sudden swerve of the car as we pulled into a stop. His eyes flared at me. Shit.

"You need to control your thoughts or I'm going to crash the fucking car" he snapped.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to, I can't help it" I admitted embarrassed as I looked away unable to meet his gaze anymore.

"Listen Alex, I know this is hard for you. I don't really understand it myself if I'm honest. One day everything is normal and the next we're in each other's heads. It's messed up, I know that. But I also know how I feel when I'm around you, it's like something is pulling me towards you and I can't do anything to stop it. If that's what you feel for both me and Chase then it must be pretty hard to deal with" he eyed me sympathetically as I lifted my head and glanced over at him.

"It's impossible. It's like I'm being pulled two different ways and I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt anyone and I love him, I honestly do. But I can't shut these feelings off that I'm having for you and right now I don't know what that means. Right now I'm just trying to get through this without hurting either one of you"

"What about you Alex, in this moment, right now. What do you want"

"Nate please, I don't want to hurt any"

"Right now Alex, forget about hurting people and worrying what people think. This is about you. I'm asking you in this moment, in this car right now what do you want"

I breathed in suddenly feeling short of breath. I knew what I wanted in this moment and part of me knew that it was wrong, that I shouldn't be selfish.

"Right now Alex, you have to say the words"

I looked at him, his green eyes piercing through me like he could see into my soul

"You, I want you"

And then it all went black.

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Nate

"Alex, Alex can you hear me....shit" I ran my hands through my hair panicked as she lay slumped in the seat of my car. How did I not see she was having a panic attack. I was too busy thinking with my dick trying to get her to admit what I already knew was true. This was my fucking fault. We were almost back at hers so I shot a quick text to Chase asking him to meet us there asap before making sure she was comfortable and heading back to hers as fast as I could.

I pulled up outside her house and jumped out of the car racing around to her. I opened the door and unbuckled her belt being careful to support her. I place my arms underneath her and scooped her up in my arms. I heard a car door slam and looked up to see Chase thundering towards us.