KPOP IMAGINES BOOK 2

💙 Yeo One- Pentagon 💙

This imagine was requested by irah_wz314

Changgu's POV

10 years ago my girlfriend and love of my life Y/ N was killed in a car accident by a drunk driver. We had been friends since we were children but only boyfriend and girlfriend for a short time but I really loved her. She is my first and only love. I still see her in my life. I had loved her all my life. I have been with no one else since Y/ N died. I do blame myself for the car accident she got into. When girls get close to me, I tell them I have a girlfriend as I don't want to be in a relationship. I visit Y/ N's grave often and lay flowers down and talk to her. I would do anything to bring her back. To go back in time to when she was alive. She was not even 18 when she was killed. We were both still high school seniors. Her death impacted many lives especially mine as I loved her deeply. I didn't tell her I loved her enough which I regret. You should always tell the people you are close to that you love them a lot. I still look back at photos and things of Y/ N everyday and a year comes to my eye because I miss her so much everyday. Life is so lonely without her. I know it was 10 years ago now but I still haven't moved on.  I cry when I think of Y/ N sometimes but I try not to. I talk to her like she's still here in my mind. I am sat at the kitchen table going through some of Y/ N belongings like the special things she used to keep. People tell me I need to move on and accept the fact she's gone. "Y/ N, I miss you everyday, sweetie. Please come back if there was only a way" I say looking at a picture of Y/ N in her school uniform. A tear comes to my eye. I tried to call myself down by thinking happy thoughts of her but bad ones just flood back

I always think about the moment that i asked Y/ N to be my girlfriend. It was when we were at school one day and I asked her to come to the park after. It was such a special moment for both of us. It was heartbreaking to think that not long after that she was taken from me and killed by a stupid drunk driver. I was at the scene of the accident too as I was in the car with her. I should've been the one who was driving. That's why I blame myself. So the day I asked Y/ N to be my girlfriend, we met at the school lockers. I remembered that I saw nervous when it came to asking her to be my girlfriend because I didn't know if she would accept it or not but thankfully she did. I met her by the lockers and we walked to the park together and we talked on the way there. We sat down on a park bench and started talking. I didn't ask her straight away. I got more to the point later. I looked her in the eyes and touched her hand and we both smiled at each other. "Y/ N, you mean a lot to me, you know that" I said. "And you mean a lot to me too, Changgu. You have done for a long time" she replied. "You-you mean a lot to me too. A hell of a lot to me" I say. I had to compose myself for a minute before I opened my mouth again and spoke. "Y/ N, there is something I need to ask you?" I said. "Sure" she said. "Will you be. Will you be my girlfriend?" I asked. I watched Y/ N smile at me so joyfully. "Yes I would absolutely love to be your girlfriend, Changgu. I'm mad about you" Y/ N replied. "I'm crazy about you" I say. I held back from kissing her then as I didn't feel like it was the right moment. I still had butterflies in my tummy but that's how I asked Y/ N to be my girlfriend

I keep on having nightmares of the moment that we had the car accident and Y/ N was killed. It was such a horrible moment. I still do blame myself for Y/ N's death that night. We were driving along the highway and it was late at night. Y/ N was tired but she still wanted to drive even though I offered to drive we I knew she was tired. If only I had driven, Y/ N would still be here. "I know you're tired. I should've drove. We can pull over" I said." "No no it's fine, Changgu. I'm fine" she yawned. "I don't think you are but if you say you are" I replied. She smiled at me. All of a sudden Y/ N took her eyes off the road and the car swerved a drunk driver was driving on the wrong side of the road. It plowed into us on Y/ N's side and hit her directly. She was breathing but barely and bleeding a lot. She was bleeding everywhere from the impact of the accident. In fact I didn't even know she was alive at first. I was shaking and crying. I somehow managed to get out of the accident alive. I wish it was me who was driving and died. I did call an ambulance straight away and didn't leave her side. Y/ N was laying in the car almost lifeless. Her pulse and heart rate started to get lower. I think I knew at that moment that she wasn't going to make it. That was was no hope for her. The ambulance came in about 8 minutes from me calling it. I didn't want to accept that Y/ N was dead on the scene. That I'm never going to see her again. The paramedic looked at me with sorrow in his face and said "I'm afraid, sir. She's gone. She was already dead when we arrived" he said. "I knew it. Why her? Why not me?" I reply. "Sir, you didn't do anything wrong" the paramedic said. "Yes I did. I should be the one lying there not my girlfriend. She did nothing to deserve that" I replied. The paramedics comforted me as I was beside myself in tears. I could barely stay on my own two feet. That was the moment the accident happened and I lost Y/ N. The worst and most painful moment of my entire life

I want to go back in time to get Y/ N back. I want to go back and save Y/ N. I heard if i burn my old photos of us, it might be a chance to save her and go back in time like the accident never happened. Like it never happened. I know it was 10 years ago but I am still not over her and what happened and how it effected my life for the last 10 years. I look at the photos and a year comes to my eye. I take a lighter and goes outside and start burning the photos. I don't want to erase every memory of Y/ N as I love her and still want memories of her even if I can't get her back. I burn the photos and watch them disappear to the ground. I then close my eyes and picture a different moment. Just like the accident didn't happen and it ended different. It was like the accident never happened and I was the one driving. It would have been a different ending. A totally different ending. I looked at Y/ N  and I said to her "I will drive because I know that you're tired". "Thank you, Changgu. I love you" she smiled. We got in the car and I drove in the drivers seat. I kept on looking at Y/ N and telling her how much I love her and how beautiful she looked. The road was quiet. Not many cars on the road and no drunk drivers. That's what I wish had happened. Wish Y/ N and I would've got our happy ending because I think now we would been married with at least three children. Two boys and a girl I picture. That would've been amazing if that happened because I know that Y/ N would have made the best wife and mother in the world. Oh how I still miss her so much everyday

A/ N: I tried my best considering I have ever seen the k drama Blue Birthday. Yeri and Hongseok are in it. Not on Netflix though. I hope it was okay. Thank you for requesting irah_wz314

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