KPOP IMAGINES BOOK 2

💛 Siwoo- BLANK2Y 💛

This is my own original idea

This imagine is based on she's all I wanna be by Tate McRae

My boyfriend is Park Siwoo. We have been dating a few months but I feel kinda unhappy with him. He's not the boyfriend I thought he was. He was really nice at first don't get me wrong but I feel like he looks at girls who are skinner and prettier than me. I'm not skinny or pretty even though Siwoo says I am. Think he's only using me in a way because there are lots of girls out there who are skinner and prettier than me  which is just about every girl I've seen. I have always been insecure about myself and Siwoo is my first boyfriend. I don't know what I did to get his attention. Must've been something. We met in college but we have graduated now. We both studied law together so that's how we met. Since Siwoo and I started dating I have just not been feeling myself. I just don't think he's good for me anymore but I don't want to blame him for anything though. Maybe he doesn't really like me though and is just using me. I don't know if I should breakup with Siwoo or stay with him. I'm undecided yet. I am seeing Siwoo today. His mom has invited me to go out for dinner with them and I agreed of course. I've only met his family a few times but they are nice and welcoming people. I am getting ready now and Siwoo is picking me up. I know it's kinda a big thing going out with your boyfriends family. This is the first time I've been out out with them but it's nice to be included. Siwoo said he's on his way soon to my place. I decided to put on something nice since it's a special occasion. I do my hair and makeup nicely too. I get in Siwoo's car when he pulls up. "Hey" I say. "Hi, babe. Looking pretty" he said. "Do you mean it?" I reply. "Of course I do" he said. "Sure" I reply. Siwoo leans over to kiss me on the cheek and we go to the restaurant we are meeting his family at. His mom had a smile on her face and pulled me in for a hug. "Nice to see you, Y/ N. Nice of you to join us" she said. "Thank you for inviting me" I smile. We get a table with Siwoo's parents and younger brother too. Looks like a nice restaurant

We have just ordered our food and drinks have arrived at the table. I can see Siwoo being distracted by his work home. "Siwoo, please put your phone away. This is a family meal and your girlfriend is next to you" his mom said. "Sorry mom. I won't be a minute" Siwoo said. He was turning his phone away from me. I saw out of the corner of my eye that he was looking at images of girls. Girls in revealing bathing suits by the looks. I only caught a look for a split second. If he's doing that I can't believe it. Well I'm not surprised actually if he looking at other girls in that way and just using me. Siwoo's mom could tell there was something wrong. He puts his phone away and we talk at the table with his family. I feel an uneasy feeling in my tummy and don't feel like eating but i try to  eat even though I ordered something nice to eat. I try to eat as much as I can. When I had eaten I feel a bit sick so I take myself off to the bathroom. Siwoo mom could tell there was something up with me. I go into my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror and tears fall down my eyes. She follows me in a few minutes later. "Y/ N, what's up, sweetie" she said. "Nothing I'm okay" I reply. "You don't seem fine. You've been crying. You can tell me" she said. I take a deep  breath and compose myself for a minute. "Y/ N, you don't have to tell me if you don't feel like it" Siwoo's mom said. "Okay it's Siwoo" I say. "Something gone on between you two. You seem strong to me" she says. "I think I caught him looking at revealing pictures of girls on his phone at the table. I sometimes feel unhappy with him. He makes me feel like that" I say. "Y/ N, I'm so sorry he makes you feel like that. He shouldn't be looking at other girls. That's very wrong of him. He's got a lovely girlfriend. What more does he want?" she said. "He doesn't like my body, Mrs Park. He doesn't like my body. He wants a skinny girl with a perfect body and skin and that's not me" I say. "Honey, I'm sure Siwoo loves you. I can't believe he's being so stupid. She's brought other girls home before but I think you are the most genuine" Mrs Park said. She hugs me and I try and calm down before I go back in there. Siwoo, his dad and brother wonder where we have been all this time. "You okay, babe" Siwoo said. "Yeah" I rely. "Have you been crying?" his brother asks. "I'm okay" I smile. We sit and finish our drinks and then go. Siwoo takes me home but I don't say much till we are home. "Y/ N, why are you acting so weird tonight. What's up? You've not been yourself and you ran off to the bathroom" he said. "Why do you think? What have you been doing?" I say. "What do you mean?" Siwoo said. "Don't act stupid, Siwoo. You are well aware of what you've been doing tonight and worst thing is I caught you doing it" I say. "Okay sorry, babe. Maybe I was looking at something I wasn't supposed to. I'm sorry please forgive me" he said. "It's not good enough, Siwoo. I'm your girlfriend and you shouldn't be looking at other girls. Your mom was disgusted when I told her" I say. "I was only looking at them for fun" Siwoo said. "You don't make me feel happy anymore. This relationship is not healthy anymore. I'm done. Can't be with you anymore" I say. "Y/ N, I'm sorry. I won't do that again. I can't lose you. Please" he said. "Well it's too late now. You've blown it. You should try to control yourself next time" I say. "I'm sorry, babe. I promise I'll try. Please don't leave me. I love you, Y/ N" Siwoo said. "Well you should've thought about that before you did what you did" I say. I run out of the car as quick as I could as I just wanted to get away from him. I'm done with Siwoo. Taking a break from our relationship. He can look at skinner and prettier girls all he wants now