Mr Player//BTS FF

Chapter 19

A silence had fallen in the living room of Dae's and Ari's apartment who had left their jobs and had taken a longer break than usual just to listen to what Seon was telling them, in this emergency meet-up.

And what she confessed to them surely left them with their mouths open in shock because they had thought and wished for the incident with Jimin to not be repeated because it was supposed to be a simple impulse of the moment while now what exactly could they label it as?

"Seon, are you even listening to what you are saying?" Dae uttered after a while, not believing that not only did she dit it with Jimin but she admitted that she liked it and felt like she needed more of him at that too.

"Who cares about what she is saying. Our issue is what she is doing! You have lost your mind completely, haven't you?" Ari lost her patience briefly, her reply coming off as a bit aggressive.

"This is the problem. You don't understand me! There was no way I could have done such a thing and be considering myself reasonable. I'm telling you something is wrong with me" Seon's eyes reflected her desperation although her words may have sounded as if she was exaggerating, she truly had started believing that something was wrong with her.

"What. Do you mean that on a serious note?" Ari looked at her a bit more worried about her now. 

"And what makes you think you are losing your mind other than the indescribable actions you do?" Dae tried to not take her words too seriously because as a psychologist she had started to give psychological interpretations to the situation that had nothing to do with madness.

"From the moment I slept with him for the first time and after, I have started to have strange dreams and what is inexplicable is that it is like thoughts... That is, I do not see images, only blackness and words that my voice says. If this is not going crazy then I don't know what is!" Seon explained having really begun to believe that these voices in her head were a sign of madness that pushed her to do things she regrets bitterly afterwards.

Ari gave a side glance at Dae, waiting to see if she had anything to add to the matter as an expert, but Dae didn't seem to know how to answer as she wasn't expecting to hear such an odd thing in reply.

"The way you are putting it, it has started to sound serious," Ari confessed, not knowing what else to say to advise her.

The fact that for her sake they had kept a secret from You for so long had burdened her a lot and now that she has learned that the cheating is continuous it is very likely that she won't be able to meet your eyes from tomorrow onwards but that was not her only problem. Because if a quarrel was to break out between you and Seon and you were to find out that and she and Dae already knew about everything, you would definitely be mad at them too. Ari couldn't even think of the stress that could fall on her if ultimately they were put in a situation in which she had to choose to be on your side or Seon's, because even though Seon was wrong, she couldn't bring herself to blame her fully either.

After all, Seon didn't do what she did alone and this other filth that was messing up her friends' friendship had ultimately gotten the direction of her anger instead.

"What am I going to do? I don't know what to do. I don't want to do this to Jungkook. He doesn't deserve this. Nor Y/n does. Can someone kill me already, please?" Seon didn't take long to burst into tears as she had never to this day done a hateful act, as infidelity was to her. She despises cheating so much, just how had she ended up being the one who was cheating? She couldn't help but feel confused over the essence of her own being.

Just stop thinking about him, stop attracting him, stop it!!

She said angrily to the voice that had haunted her since that night and had begun to drive her crazy, filling her with doubts and questions to which she could not find an answer still.