Mr Player//BTS FF

Chapter 69

Jimin sat in the chair once his brother and Seon had left the office, his head low as his eyes looked at the floor.

His heart was beating in a slow rhythm as if fading as his feelings began to freeze, fear, sadness and pain now turning into a numbness that had made him forget the pain of his body due to his physical condition.

"Jimin? Are you okay?" Your voice rang in his ears reminding him of your presence in the room which he had forgotten for the moment.

"Can you leave me alone for a while please?" He told you without looking at you and you looked at him for a while, thinking about how you should act.

You knew Jimin had a lot to think about at the moment and his emotions must be a mess so you decided to give him what he asked for and walked out of Jungkook's office leaving him there.

You ignored the looks from the employees gathered in the secretariat and headed for the elevator, the events that had taken place so far travelling through your mind.

Those few days you had spent with Jungkook had now come to an end. You won't have to listen to him anymore. You will no longer have those eyes full of love looking at you because no one loved you.

The childish side inside him, the Jungkook you had met these days, this man who had made you open up to him somewhat and develop some kind of feelings towards his figure was no longer there. As you had always said and reminded yourself, the Jungkook who had encouraged you and helped you with some things, was no more.

The elevator door opening woke you up from your trail of thought and as you wearily walked out to head to your office, your eye caught an employee downing a pill and that's when your eyes widened, at the reminder of a very important thought that had escaped your mind.

The pills! We haven't found the pills yet and he could use them!

Panic gripped you in thought only that Jungkook could try to do something to Seon again and it made you run to your supervisor's desk and grab his car keys, before heading outside aiming to get at Jungkook's house, where they both must have headed after they left the company.

---Time skip ----

Jungkook slammed the door shut behind him, making the sound spread throughout the quiet apartment the two of them had just entered.

"Jungkook" Seon caught his attention as he passed her by having thought and panicked quite a bit inwardly all her way home.

She had finally come to the conclusion that a lie wasn't good enough to fix this situation, this situation couldn't be fixed because she just wasn't carried away and had feelings for Jimin, and as much as she didn't want to hurt Jungkook, she was now late and such a thing was impossible.

"What do you want to tell me Seon? That you love my brother?" He asked her and her mouth felt like it was going dry as his gaze fell on her.

"What I said in the office. I'm sorry but it wasn't all true. I went with him, at first, I wasn't sure why and I was so frustrated over that event but... Now I think I know why" Her words rocked his world as now fear and panic filled his insides, even though he didn't show it on his face.

"I love you and yes you are the best anyone could ask for but for some reason, my heart beats differently when I'm with him. When he tells me that he loves me, when he looks at me.. he just gives me this weird feeling like he's this one thing I've always wanted...the one thing I have been missing within." Her words now came from her heart, admitting things that even she had no reason to be stubborn and selfish over but now she did it thinking that she might never have the chance to speak of something like that again.

"Why are you telling me all this? Do you think it's pleasant for me?" His voice was cold as well as his expression, trying not to show his pain as Jungkook was now faced with his worst nightmare.

"I don't want to hurt you, I never wanted to but... There's no going back between us, unfortunately. We can't be together after all this. I'm sorry." Her words dripped into his heart like her tears on the floor and he stood still watching her cry before she made an attempt to turn to leave.

His body reacted on its own and he grabbed her arm, his eyes now begging her to stay as his lips soon did with the words he let loose.

"Don't leave me. Please stay with me. Even if you don't love me now I'll do anything to make you love me. In time you'll see we'll be happy together again. You can't leave me like this." Seon couldn't help but feel really, really bad at that moment because he seemed so desperate for her and her love, but it was all a lie because she wouldn't be able to give him pure love. She couldn't give him his due so she just pulled away and ran out as fast as she could, not wanting him to stop her again as now she needed some time to herself as well.

And Jungkook just stared at the now closed door with tears forming in his eyes.

A scream followed those tears as he then started smashing everything he found in his way, kicking couches and even punching the walls, the kitchen cabinets he went to after he had destroyed the living room, his hands now covered in blood from the cuts he had inflicted on himself.

But the truth was that he couldn't feel pain because the anger had overwhelmed him, and he hadn't even noticed your presence, who had barged in with the key you still had, thinking that Seon was still inside and after hearing of the noise that he was making in there which was so loud it could be heard all the way outside, you couldn't help but have grown worried enough to get inside.

He was about to slam his fist into another window when you grabbed his arm and only then did he notice your existence, your cries for him to stop having gone unnoticed by his ears until then.

"Calm down. Jungkook. Calm down." These words reached his ears causing his movement to come to a halt and he simply looked at you for a moment before grabbing you by the neck and slamming you into the wall.

His hold was tight around your neck as you now looked at him full of fear and managed to utter faintly his name once more.

"Why are you here?!! WHAT DO YOU WANT HERE!?!" At his scream, You closed your eyes, now scared as hell as your hands began to shake before his scary presence.

"Jungkook... I... You're hurting me" You managed to tell him briefly his eyes showing you that he didn't have a full understanding of his actions.

He quickly pulled away from you and looked at his hands and then around him, slowly realizing what he had done and that's when the fear started to grow inside him again.

Nothing had changed, no matter how hard he tried over the years to become better. His violent side was still there and it seems after all these years it was still much stronger than him, taking control of his life and turning him into a monster.

Turning him into what made him hate himself. A man without self-control.

His eyes soon met yours again only for him to grab you by the arm and march you to the door and throw you out, without saying anything else for the dread that he could hurt you had penetrated him and had made him want to keep you as far away so you could be safe. He placed himself in his hell and just like in the past he stood in his fear, having left you standing behind that front door breathless for a moment before you started to cry, not knowing how else to express these feelings of fear and pain that you were experiencing at that moment.

It was as if you had in front of you that man you hated so much. It was terrifying.

---To be continued...