Mr Player//BTS FF

Chapter 38

Seon opened the door of her apartment and entered only to be frightened by the sudden sight that came into her field of vision.

Her husband, Jungkook, was standing on the edge of the small hallway that led to the living room and the other rooms of the apartment, with his arms crossed over his chest and an expressionless look on his face.

"Where were you?" He asked her, the tone of his voice serious as the time was passed midnight and she hadn't answered any of his calls, having made him worried but also has made him angry.

"I was at Y/N'S and we kind of forgot the time," Seon replied avoiding looking at him for her words were hiding something and that was the fact that she wasn't only with you.

On the way home, her mind got time to think and think, about how much everything was so wrong and how she wanted all this to stop. She wanted to not have to lie to him anymore and not hurt him either.

She knew that now the only solution was divorce but how could she say such a thing? There was no way of leaving Jungkook without hurting him. But also living like that was torturing for her. She was suffocating more and more day by day. She was drowning in remorse and one day she had to find the strength to put an end to it all.

"Is that so? Couldn't you at least give me a text baby? You should have let me know!" He inadvertently raised his voice a little, making Seon lower her head, whispering an apology to him.

Jungkook ruffled his hair a little as he immediately regretted this behaviour and reached out to her to bring her in his embrace.

"Sorry...I am not really mad, I just got so worried. I couldn't reach you and I didn't know where you were... please don't do this to me ever again." He told her holding her gently against his chest but his words only filled her with more guilt, making her glass overflow.

  Seon pushed him lightly, after that, her emotions got the best of her and made her certain that she couldn't let him affect her anymore and soothe her.

He did not deserve this and she had to tell him the truth. She owed it to him, at least to learn it from her and no one else.

"Jungkook. I want to break up." She looked him in the eyes, noticing how he grew pale as her words reached his ears.

"Come on my love, don't say that. I'm sorry. I will never raise my voice at you again. It won't happen again. You know I didn't mean to -" He tried to explain but those words were unnecessary because that was not the reason she wanted to break up with him, so she interrupted him and told him the reason, once and for all.

"I cheated on you. I've slept with another man Jungkook." Her heart began to pound as soon as those words left her lips, not yet believing that she really found the courage to say it.

The silence that fell between them after these words of hers dripped like poison for Seon who with each passing minute felt like she was about to lose her mind, trying to guess his reaction.

"When? .. How? .. With Who did you- ?!" Jungkook spoke, at last, his voice relaxed but the look in his eyes had made fear travel till her bones.

He had never looked at her like that and basically, she had never seen any look of anger on his face. He was always sweet with her, always full of love, always ... Perfect.

"Somehow.... it happened once before our wedding. I don't know-how and after .. Just... I don't know. I tried to not let it get repeated but for some reason ... I am so sorry." She forced herself to explain as much as she could leaving out of the discussion with whom as she didn't want him to know about that. It would have been better if he was never known because she was certain that Jungkook wouldn't be able to bear it.