This takes place at the beginning of season 2. After Meredith found out about Derek wife and is trying to move on from him. But something comes up might change her life forever.
It's a few hours into work and I have a surgery with the new attending.
We haven't met them yet. Nobody has. I scrubbed out of surgery and went to check on the kids up in daycare.
I walk down the halls and I see Nathan playing with the twins.
"Hey, what are you guys doing here?" I ask.
"Daddy took us to the park!" Mallory smiles as she runs over to me.
"Yeah, did you have fun?" I ask her.
"Yeah, I saw a ladybug... but then Miles squished it!" she yells the last part while glaring at Miles.
"was an accident," he shrugs.
"Okay, don't be alarmed but the new neuro attending starting here is Derek, he'll be here soon," he says.
"what?!" I ask.
"he's already here.. walking down the hall.. this way, goodbye," she says.
I turn to look behind and I see Derek walking with Richard. he has a beard and he looks like shit.. in a nice way.
"Can you take the kids up to daycare please?" I say to Nathan.
"Yeah, of course." he says but Derek's already walked past up before Nathan can get the kids up to daycare. he looked at them for a few seconds before he looks away.
the kids didn't think much of it considering they don't know Nathan isn't their real dad./
"Meredith, are you ready for the big surgery?" Richard asks me.
"Yes, of course, I'll go scrub in," I did just get out of surgery but I'll scrub in with her again.
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the surgery was boring and quiet. now one word was said in that OR Derek didn't look any better in scrubs. I don't know why I'm being so mean to him... no, I have the right to treat him like shit for leaving to new York two years ago and leaving me to raise two children alone.
I wasn't alone but he didn't know that. he expected me to raise them alone without any help.
as we're scrubbing out I take a glance at Derek. I look at his hands. I see multiple scars on his wrists, there's multiple cuts. I count seven.
I look away and turn off the tap before drying my hands. I leave the scrub room.
Derek
I saw Meredith look at my scars before she left. I saw my kids. They both look exactly like me.
The reason I came back to Seattle was because Richard called me and said he needed a new neuro surgeon.
Meredith has also changed a lot over the years. She looks older, not in a bad she just looks more.. mature.
The twins are older. I can't believe their so big. The last time I saw them they were new borns and only a few hours old.
Why did I ever go back to New York?
Addison and I divorced a while ago. We got divorced while she was waiting for her prison Sentence.
She went to prison for attempted murder and kidnapping breaking and entering, physical assault and harassment.
She's been in there ever since and I couldn't take my family constantly asking why Addison never came over and why she never called.
I also hadn't told them about Meredith being pregnant.
So I told them the whole story. Nancy was pissed that I got another woman, she didn't even care that Addison almost killed her. She said Meredith deserved it for getting with a married man even though she knew Meredith didn't know I was married when we met.
I don't know how Meredith and I will work together. But I think we have to talk first.
I know she probably won't want me apart of their lives but I do have the right to be a father to my children and I don't think Meredith would deny, unless they was someone else in the picture.
My mental health hasn't been very good either lately which I guess I kind of deserved after what I did.
It got so bad I tried killing myself a year ago and another time after that.
I started cutting around a year ago. I don't do it as much anymore but I do if something triggers it.
And Meredith knows that now too and she probably won't want that around the kids.
I don't know what mess I've created, or how to clean it up.
