This takes place at the beginning of season 2. After Meredith found out about Derek wife and is trying to move on from him. But something comes up might change her life forever.
On the way home the kids fell asleep in the car. I told Derek and his mother that I was pregnant again, they both seemed very happy.
I also told the twins, Mallory was excited and started clapping her hands but Miles was too busy eating to care and when I asked him if he was happy and just shrugged his shoulders and asked for my drink.
I carrier Miles in whole Derek brought Mallory in.
We brought them to their room and they stayed asleep as we did so.
Derek also arranged for us to go to New York in a few weeks since Derek's mother was only here for a few days and tomorrow he was going to go see the space needle.
Apparently Derek's sisters want to meet the twins and they also have kids and they will all be there.
I'm kind of scared because I don't know anyone and Derek knows everyone so he'll probably end up leaving me alone to go talk to someone I don't know.
Mallory's a little shy especially with new people and this will also be a whole new city so hopefully I'll have her on my side.
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Derek and I are currently laying in bed, naked now. We just finished having sex and I'm sitting between his legs as his arms are wrapped around me.
"Do you think the kids heard? You were pretty loud," he says into my hair.
"No, they're probably asleep," I say. "My mother liked you, a lot, she thinks you're good for me," he says.
"Really?" I say. "Yes, she actually thinks you're too good for me," he chuckles.
"She's not wrong, you're lucky I even took you back," I say. "I know," he says. "I don't think I ever officially apologized for leaving you to raise two children alone," he says.
"You didn't, and I wasn't alone. Nathan helped a lot, and not just with the kids," I smirk at him. "I don't want to hear about your sex life with another man," he groans pressing his head into my shoulder.
"So you're saying you never had sex with anyone in the two years you were in New York?" I ask. "No, I wasn't thinking about having sex with you, in those two years the only thing I thought about was you," he says.
"that's it?" I ask. "yes, what else would I have thought about?" he says. "I don't know, living your best life without a woman or a two kids to deal with, most men who leave women with their children find a new woman and never look back," I say.
"I didn't leave because I didn't want anything to do with you or Miles and Mallory.. I left because something didn't feel right, it wasn't you, you were perfect, you are perfect.. I didn't feel right, I didn't feel happy and in order to raise happy children you have to be happy yourself and I didn't want to bring you down with me or bring the kids into it.. so I left," he says.
"You left because you were depressed and thought if you stayed you would make us all depressed?" I ask. "Yes, maybe not right away but slowly," he says.
"But you're not depressed anymore?" I ask. "No, not anymore, I figured if I was with you again then it would help," he says
"You rely on me instead of a therapist for your depression?" I say. "yes, and it worked, I'm a lot happier now," I say.
"You should still see a therapist, I can't always be the one to save your mental illnesses," I say.
"I know but it's much easier," he says.
"Do you see a therapist about it?" I ask turning around in his lap. I wrap the blanket around my waist.
"I did for a bit but not anymore," he says. "Why not?" I ask wrapping my arms around his neck.
"I don't know, I was busy with you and the kids and I'd rather spend that time with you or the kids than sit in a room with a stranger talking about my problems and feelings, I tell you about my feelings," he says. he kisses me.
"You should see someone, I'm not a professional, you need to see someone about it.. you may be fine right now but something could come along and it could trigger you... you should see someone," I say.
"Meredith-"
"I'm pregnant, Derek.. with another baby, and I think it'd be good for a baby if you were seeing someone, just in case," I smile.
"You're pregnant?" he smiles. "Yes, and if the baby was an adult they would want you to see someone just in case something happens," I say.
"like what? what would happen?" he asks. he puts his hands on my stomach where there's a small bump starting to form.
"I don't know, I could be giving birth and then die, what then?"
"Meredith, that's not funny," he keeps his hands on my stomach, rubbing the bump gently.
"fine, but it's still possible. I almost died when the twins were born," I say.
"that's only because Addison tried killing you," he kisses me.
"You never know. if you don't want to see a therapist for yourself at least do it for me, and the baby... you were with a horrible women for many years and she almost killed the love of your life and kidnapped your twins... people who go through that need therapy Derek," I say.
"Fine, but only because the thought comforts you," he kisses me.
