Make Me Smile || Kurt Cobain

Chapter 40 - Back In Black

Ashlyn

God, I'm exhausted.

Three days in and we're still here in the UK. It's been a full on series of interviews, photoshoots, press conferences and many more.

But one thing that did come out from it was my new level of popularity. Yep. That's right. Your girl's a celebrity now.

In the US, I was pretty much new and still kinda nameless but after that performance, and a couple of actual interviews including the one we did before the performance featuring Axl which aired surprisingly earlier than I thought, I had turned into a big deal.

Not my words, Dave's words.

In other news, Mike had gone back to the US which sucked but I had to suck in. Axl, the Guns and a bunch of other people were still here though.

"And look at the big deal herself" Dave said, tossing me an English magazine which I was on the front cover of. I smiled.

It featured me playing live and singing Radio Friendly Unit Shifter.

"Oh please, it's just because I'm Axl's sister and people are aware of the former animosity between you guys and Nirvana"

"Well..." Krist said, butting in. "...that could be true but many of the sections are also because of the fact that you're so young and so good. Plus, it helps that you're cute" Krist added. I blushed and gave out a little laugh.

"Well, I guess it's nice to be noticed" I commented. "Is Kurt in the bathroom still?" I asked, a bit worried. The guys nodded. "Hmm, I'm gonna check up on him"

"And cheers to the caring girlfriend" Dave teased. I rolled my eyes playfully at him as I stood up from our table and made my way to the bathroom.

Obviously I couldn't go into the men's bathroom but I knocked on the general door slightly.

"Hi, Kurt. Are you there?" I asked. There was silence for a while before I got a response.

"Yeah. I'm here" I heard him grunt out. "You can come in if you want" He said and I wasted no time in going in. I saw him hunched over the sink, rinsing his mouth and looking incredibly frail. I quickly rushed over to his side and he instinctively wrapped his arms around me, leaning into me for support.

"Ash" He whispered. "My stomach. Fuck"

"God Kurt" I breathed out. "And I haven't seen you have an episode in a while"

"I've been feeling really good lately but... God. I... I can't." He said. "I... I've been using something to make it feel better in recent times but I decided to cut myself off it so I wouldn't get addicted and now it's..."

"Kurt why would you do that?" I breathed out.

"It's not good for me." He whispered. "My stomach hurts Ash. It's hurts so bad" He groaned once more.

Poor guy.

"You know what, let's get you back to the hotel and get you rested. And please if a drug makes you feel better regardless of whatever you think please take it. I can't stand to see you like this"

"If only you knew" He whispered as he pushed away from my embrace and made his way over to the table.

What did he mean by if only I knew?

"Aww man. You're stomach's acting up?" Krist inquired, sounding quite worried as Kurt replied with a grunt and placed his head on the table. I started stroking his hair and Dave and Krist shared nervous knowing looks.

I raised an eyebrow at this.

"What happened?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows.

"Uh... we have to take Kurt back to the hotel. You can come with but..." Krist started.