Make Me Smile || Kurt Cobain

Chapter 80 - About A Girl

Kurt

What the hell did I do?

That was the question on my mind once I managed to cool myself down. I realized that I fucked up big time.

I let my anger cloud my judge and make me forget one important thing; Ashlyn was not in the right of state mind when she went over to Chris's place.

While dealing with the trauma of her rape, she got slapped by her brother.

Yet I was busy being insensitive. I told her off. I made her cry.

I told her we were through.

What the hell was wrong with me?

"What the hell is wrong with you Kurt?!" Courtney yelled on the phone.

Yeah, I fucked up alright.

"Court, I don't know. I don't fucking know. I think I'm just insecure around Chris, I mean..." I mumbled the next part of my sentence inaudibly.

"What? You've gotta speak up"

"I said... she might also find him more attractive. There I said it!" I confessed with a groan, Courtney was silent for a while which got me a bit edgy. "Uh, here's the part where you defend me"

"You might be a little right on that one" She joked.

"Way to lift up my self esteem Court"

Courtney giggled. "What? He's hot! But that doesn't mean Ash would choose him over you. She fucking loves you."

"I know. But she's not exactly in her right mind yet. And I think I made things worse with my outburst"

"Yeah. You fucked up there. But I'm sure she would forgive you. Like I said, she fucking loves you" Courtney assured. I sighed, taking in a deep breath at her words.

We talked for a while longer before we eventually ended the call.

My anger had dissipated and all that was left in my heart was... regret.

I had to make it up to my baby girl.

I quickly made my way back to 'casa de Stone' and rushed into the house. Krist and Michael were sitting on the living room couch, discussing in hushed tones but I'm sure that even they were confused at the speed at which I was running.

"Don't fall Kurt" Krist yelled. I paid no mind to him as I quickly got to the door of Ashlyn's room. I placed an ear at the door, expecting to hear sounds of sobbing or something, but heard nothing.

She must be sleeping. Poor thing was probably exhausted.

I decided to take in a deep breath and walk away from the room. I'd already done enough to hurt the poor girl today, the least I could do was to allow her have a decent sleep.

I slowly trodded downstairs, probably looking defeated as I made my way over to Krist and Michael sat.

"Someone's a mess" Krist commented. "I'm guessing you and Ash had a falling out"

"A falling out is an understatement." I commented with a sigh. "I ended things with her, impulsively."

Krist and Michael's mouths dropped open in shock.

"Kurt, lemme get this straight. You quote unquote 'broke up' with Ashlyn. A girl who literally got grilled about Chris by us, a girl who's mental state is very touchy and a girl who was just raped a weeks ago, you broke up with her?" Michael asked.