Make Me Smile || Kurt Cobain

Chapter 74 - The Girl Who Bought The World

Ashlyn

Chris's words about Michael really struck a chord with me. Michael was still going on about living his own life. I couldn't take that away from him. I couldn't be mad at him either. I know Michael loves me and we have a bond that can't be broken easily.

But it did make me see things in a different perspective.

The last thing I ever wanted was to be a burden to anyone.

So you know what? I made up my mind that I'm ready to finally get back on the road. I'm ready to put all this behind me. Since clearly, I can't get peace in Seattle either.

I stepped out of my room to look for Kurt. He had been gone a while. I found him looking distraught at his phone as he finished a call with who I presumed, was Krist.

"Hey" I greeted, making him jump, as he turned around to see me. "You seem disturbed. What gives?"

"Uh..." He looked like he was about to lie to me, but sighed. "...okay, I told your brother about your decision..." Kurt paused, as he looked at me fearfully.

"Okay... so?" I asked. Why was he so scared of me finding out. Did he think I would be mad?

"He's pissed" Kurt informed. "He said he's coming over to talk some sense into you"

"Okay... so?" I asked. Kurt sighed once more, and rubbed his neck. When he did so, I noticed some needle marks on his arm and my heart skipped a bit.
That was still an issue we hadn't resolved yet.

His drug usage.

I snapped myself back into reality as I noticed Kurt's worried expression. I instantly knew why.

"You're scared Axl's gonna try to hit me again, aren't you?" I asked. Kurt said nothing. But his eyes told the whole story. "Oh Kurt..."

"Axl's been really harboring a lot of anger lately, and I don't want him to take it out on you. It's just not cool. It's terrible"

"I know Kurt. But Ax won't hurt me. If he's feeling angry about my decision, I'm sure we can talk it out. At the end of the day, he's still my brother" I assured, probably feeling almost as uncertain as Kurt looked.

I wasn't scared of my brother. I couldn't be. He was my brother. And he cares about me deeply.

Sure, he has put his hands on me once, and almost did yesterday, and seems to have some issues with his anger, I knew my brother wouldn't do anything bad to me.

At least, I hoped.

"Well, if you say so Ash, if you say so. But any wrong move, Krist, Dave and I will be on him like flies"

I said nothing, as I pulled him into one of our signature hugs, as he gently stroked my hair. It's times like these that I was certain that everything would be alright.

But deep down, I knew that it would take a while.

Izzy

I was still in this shitty Seattle hospital with no one visiting other than Michael's shitty girlfriend.

"How are you feeling now Izzy?" She asked.

"Are you the one behind the Ashlyn tabloid story?" I asked, cutting straight to the point. Chantelle rolled her eyes.

"Of course not. If anything, that made her more of a priority in Michael's life. Can you believe he made all of us pack up and move out of the house? In a night? He fucking loves that girl. And it makes me sick" Chantelle groaned. "I've been suggesting that we move for a long time before this. But I never had his ear"