Make Me Smile || Kurt Cobain

Chapter 63 - My Favorite Inside Source

Kurt

My dreams were plagued with nightmares. Disturbing nightmares.

I jumped up from bed at about 6am to see an empty spot on the bed next to me and I immediately panicked.

That was until I saw the note at my bedside in her handwriting.

Decided to go for an early jog. Don't miss me too much - Ashlyn.

A jog? I felt like I barely knew this girl anymore.

And to be fair, I didn't.

Since the events of the UK everything had been a downward spiral. I didn't understand my Ashlyn anymore. I didn't connect with her as much as I needed to.

I hadn't even had my most important conversation with her yet; my drug issue.

Heck we had a huge fight before Izzy attempted to rape her which still remained unresolved.

How the hell was I gonna get my Ashlyn back?

I pondered on this thought as I made my down to the kitchen to try to get something to eat, hopefully it stayed down this time.

But as I made my way over to the kitchen, I heard what sounded like arguing coming from two very familiar voices; Michael and his girlfriend, Chantelle

"...she needs to go Mike! She's stressing you out! Look at your face!" I heard Chantelle complain to Michael from the kitchen. "You're not getting enough sleep"

"Chantelle, Ashlyn's like my sister... she is my sister. I can't leave her now"

"Oh really? She's your sister. Well how about you take a look at how her ACTUAL brother treated her last night cause he was sick of her shit. I know you are too"

Sick of her shit? Was she justifying what Axl did?

I knew there was a reason I didn't like Michael's girlfriend.

"How can you say that? She was almost raped! Imagine the trauma! I'm expecting you as a fellow woman to understand more than anything!" Michael exclaimed.

"Oh give me a break." Chantelle brushed off. "Are you sure she wasn't raped for real cause she sure as hell is overreacting"

Overreacting? Why that bitch! How could she say that? The nerve!

"Are you crazy? Why would you even say something like that?!" Michael yelled. I could hear the anger building up in his voice.

He had an extremely soft spot for Ashlyn, everyone could see that. But we could also see that he loved Chantelle dearly... for some reason.

So for him to get angry at his girlfriend meant she crossed a line. And she wasn't done...

"Oh I'm just saying. Are you sure she wasn't actually raped? Cause she certainly seems like someone that was raped" Chantelle said.

"That's enough babe" Michael said through clenched teeth.

"You guys should try looking into that. Who knows anytime she was left alone maybe Izzy or someone else..."

"That's enough Chantelle!" Michael yelled loudly which seemed to keep her silent. "I don't wanna hear any other word from you on this else you'll be the one leaving and not her. Got it?"

"Since this girl came all you care about is her! You barely even have time for me or even for yourself!" Chantelle yelled, the cracks audible in her voice. "And you've not been showing up in the bedroom" She said in a softer tone. "I've missed that"

I heard Michael sigh. "You know we can't do that. Ashlyn was almost raped it wouldn't be..."

"That's my point exactly!" Chantelle exclaimed. "Almost. Unless she was raped for real she shouldn't have this severe of a response to trauma"