Make Me Smile || Kurt Cobain

Chapter 69 - With Eyes So Dilated

Chris

I feel bad for trying to exploit Ashlyn's newfound vulnerability but it was necessary. She had become so calm around me.

What made me see that more was the fact Kurt seemed incredibly uneasy with it.

He probably thought I was becoming another Izzy but that's far from it. Izzy's just a fool.

Ashlyn full on loved him. If he played his cards right he could've gotten her virginity for free. But instead... he opted to do... that. And scar the poor girl.

Well I hate to say it but at least one good thing came out of this. Ashlyn warmed up to me... a bit.

Immediately after her lunch with Kurt, she found out he had a radio interview and decided to pay me a visit.

And God was I happy. I fucking loved that. Despite the fact that I knew she had a motive.

I had a motive as well.

"Hey Ash..." I greeted, prepared to hug her but she stopped me midway. Right.

"Hi Chris. I'm sorry but... I don't want you hugging me. We're not friends" She said. I frowned but nodded.

"I get it. I've done a lot of crappy things to you. I shouldn't just expect you to have a complete one eighty In attitude just cause I'm helping you" I said with a sigh. "Anyways, what are you here for?"

"Um... so, I just wanted to have a quick self defense lesson. I've been feeling more and more unsafe these days. Gotta know how to protect myself" She said rubbing her neck. I raised an eyebrow and narrowed my eyes at her.

"You've seen Izzy haven't you?" I asked.

"Yeah. And he threatened to kill me if I don't dump Kurt for him. He brought a knife to my throat" She said. "I wanna learn how to defend myself. I know Izzy wouldn't kill me but, he has overpowered me more than once. I don't want that to happen again"

I balled my hand into a fist. The nerve of Straddlin.

I felt a little guilty though as I was the one who pointed out Izzy's feelings to him and gave him pictures of Ashlyn. All that together probably contributed into his transformation into a monster set to torment her life.

I felt pretty bad about that.

"Alright, I'm gonna teach you self defense. It's the least I can do" I said sincerely. Her face perked up a bit as a little smile beamed on it. "First things first, blocking"

"I'm all ears and ready to learn" She declared. I smiled right back at her as we continued the lesson.

Izzy

So my plan with Axl didn't work. Not that I expected it to. Axl loves and is super protective of his sister so that had little chance of actually coming into fruition.

With or without blackmail.

A guy could dream.

And it seemed like for the past few days all I've been doing has been... dreaming.

I wanted to have that feeling again. I wanted to be with Ashlyn again. I wanted her so much.

I've tried getting together with other women but nobody gives me the thrill she does. Meaning I have to get her and use her until I've gotten the lust for her completely out of my system.

But how was I gonna achieve that now?

Axl was already a bust.

Ashlyn could probably tell that my knife was fake. I knew it was a stretch when I placed it over her neck.