Make Me Smile || Kurt Cobain

Chapter 77 - Sit And Drink Pennyroyal Tea

Ashlyn

3 days later...

"It's been a while since we've hung out you know." Krist said, as we walked through the streets of Seattle.

"Tell me about it" I commented. "But I missed you. I'm really sorry for pushing you and Dave away. I just went through a lot mentally. I'm still trying to fight it" I said with a sigh.

"I understand short stuff" Krist teased, with a smile. "You've lost that little limp though. I'm happy to see that"

I smiled weakly at his comment. Due to how rough Izzy had been with me, I ached for days on end and I had bruises which took a long time to heal.

But thankfully, I seemed to be getting better physically.

But mentally...

"Krist between me and you, going back on the road scares the shit out of me" I confessed with a sigh. "And I'm a bit bothered by Michael coming on the road with us. Lately he's been, different"

"Don't I know that?" Krist chuckled. "I guess the breakup took a toll on him"

"I know. And I feel bad for him. He's been sad and moody. Which is exactly why I don't feel he should be on tour with us. If anything, he should take a vacation to some remote island. Heck my best friend Taylor's still God knows where and she's probably having the time of her life" I said with a sigh.

It was strange but I just remembered that I had a best friend.

I guess these past few weeks on the road have clouded my memory a bit.

I did miss Taylor.

But we've had zero contact since she went on vacation because whatever island she was on and no service.

"I remember Taylor. The blonde?" Krist asked as I nodded.

"We haven't said a word to each other all this while. It's quite funny really. When she does return, I have to fill her in on every single thing" I said.

"You'll get to eventually" Krist smiled.

"I know" I said.

"So, what about you and Kurt? I know you're still going through a lot but are you guys gonna make it official anytime soon?" Krist asked, seeming hopeful. I sighed.

"Krist. We haven't even resolved his drug problem yet" I whispered. "Keep it in mind, the only reason I even went to Izzy's that day was because Kurt and I had an argument. Not that I blame it on him though"

"I understand." Krist reasoned. "Don't worry, I have faith that you'll resolve your issues soon. He loves you, and I know you love him just as much"

"I do Krist. I fucking do. But at what cost?" I pondered with a sigh. "I just hope being on the road this time is less chaotic than last time. It sucks that I just wanna be on the road to avoid Izzy and God knows who else"

Krist remained quiet for a while as he pondered. "Are you sure you don't wanna go to the cops with this? Because he deserves to be behind bars."

I tended up a bit at his question and I could tell that Krist noticed.

"I'm sorry. I know you're not comfortable with the idea, but you're bringing justice to not just yourself but future victims. Just think about it okay? The right things aren't always easy" Krist said. I remained silent as we continued walking around the mall.

Maybe he had a point. As much as I was scared of Izzy and of my public image being forever marred by controversy, maybe it was the right call to get Izzy arrested.