Make Me Smile || Kurt Cobain

Chapter 64 - I'll Kiss Your Open Sores

Ashlyn

"Hi Chris, can I come in?" I said to the tall vocalist who still looked at me with utter disbelief written on his face but nodded as he let me in.

"What do I owe this visit?" He asked. "You alright?"

"Honestly, no. I'm not" I said with a sigh. "I... Chris... I'm losing my mind" I said pulling at my hair. Chris gave me a pitiful look.

"Well before you say anything else, I made a little something for us to chow on in the meantime. If you don't mind" Chris said as he guided me over to the dining table. My eyes widened in marvel as I took a look at all the delicious dishes he prepared.

"Chris, did you make this or you ordered? This looks fucking amazing!" I exclaimed. Chris smiled.

"I used to be a gourmet chef. One of my many talents" He said proudly. I nodded. "So how about we eat before you lay down anything you wanna lay on me"

"Sure, I'd like that" I said as I immediately dug into the food. And God did it taste heavenly! "God Chris! You're such a great cook! I can't even emphasize that enough"

"I owe you that much Ashlyn, after everything" He said sadly. My face drooped as I remembered everything Chris did to me in the past. "I'm sorry"

"When I'm in a much better state, I'll process that apology better" I told Chris. "I'm here for something other than that"

"I'm guessing this is about Izzy. I'm so happy he didn't go further in what he was planning to do to you"

"How did you know all about what Izzy did? Were both of you planning to..."

"Heck no. I did some things I'm not proud of, I admit. But when he told me he wanted to do that to you and told me to tag along I outright refused! I had to tell Kurt to stop him from going ahead with it. Thank God he didn't" Chris said with genuine relief. I stared at him blankly. "Ashlyn..."

"How could you tell that Izzy had ill intentions towards me?" I asked. Chris ran a hand through his hair.

"Honestly, back at Reading. The first time I saw him look at you while you guys were eating ice cream. He gave off a very predatory vibe. I'm surprised no one else could see it, other than Kurt" Chris said.

"Kurt did tell me many times but I didn't listen to him" I said quietly. "I loved Jeff, I honestly did"

"Hey..." Chris said, standing up which momentarily scared me as I flinched in response. "...I'm sorry, you're scared of me"

"You hurt me a lot Chris. I don't even understand why you did all that. But the truth of the matter is that you're the only person I can come to now. I feel all my friends are tired of dealing with me.
Axl made that very clear" I said with a sigh.

"What did Axl do?" Chris asked curiously. I gave out a weak chuckle.

"He slapped me, told me that everyone is tired of my shit and threatened to beat me up." I said with a sigh. "And I feel he's right about all my friends being tired of me so I won't even bother with them again."

"That's why you came to me" Chris acknowledged as I nodded. "Well for one, I'm never gonna get tired of you and neither will your friends. They are all just worried about you. They just want you to heal"

"What if I never heal? They don't even know the half of what Izzy did to me" I said with an involuntary sniffle. Chris raised an eyebrow as he tucked his hand under my chin to make me look at him.

"What did he do?" Chris asked.

"Izzy raped me, Chris"

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