Hellbound MC - When Broken Hearts Collide

43. Alexis

I didn't sleep a wink that night.

His words echoed over and over in my head.

'I'll make you my old lady if it's the last thing I do.'

I'd thought about it for hours.

Did I want it? Was that even a question? Of course I did. I'd just mutilated myself at the mere thought of him wanting me to move out. It sounded more ridiculous the more I thought about it.

I made a silent vow to myself to never ever do that again, no matter how bad things got. I'd have to find another way to cope.

My talk with Doc had made me realize that maybe I was worthy of happiness. After telling him my whole life story, his simple reply had stunned me, and opened my mindset up to the possibility.

Its just been shit luck. Everything thats happened in my life has just been a really bad run of extremely shitty luck.

But none of it was my fault...

So why wouldn't I deserve to be happy.

I'd spent all this time blaming myself, thinking that there's something wrong with me. That in some twisted way I deserved it. But there wasn't and I didn't. The world was just a fucked up place full of some really shitty people.

But there were some lights in the darkness. Like Dominic.

To the outside world he was one of the bad guys, but those that knew him knew better.

He'd been my hero on more than one occasion, and I loved him for it.

I loved him.

It hit me like a slap in the face.

I wasn't falling. I was gone. Head over heels. Madly in love with a gorgeous outlaw biker. The next President to be exact. I needed to sort my shit out.

The clock glowing on the desk told me it was 2am.

Trying to sleep was pointless, my brain was running a mile a minute.

Rolling out of bed, I tiptoed out the door, closing it gently behind me, before making my way down the hall. The place was eerily quiet as I made my way up the stairs and into Dom's room.

Finding a fresh set of clothes and my phone, I put my playlist on and started the shower, undressing and getting in as the sound of Marilyn Manson's Tainted Love filled my eardrums.

As the hot water washed over me, it almost felt symbolic. As the dried blood of my self inflicted washed away, I was washing away the old me.

Goodbye, scared, pathetic Alexis.

And hello to the new me. I didn't want to hide from the world anymore. No more running from my feelings, putting up walls, and jumping to the worst conclusions.

Something felt different this time, like I knew within myself there was no going back from here. Time to open myself up to the word again. Face my demons head on.

Only problem was this stupid fucking lockdown. Dom said it'd be over once The Devil's Rejects had been and gone, but that was still just under a week away.

Dressing into my ripped black skinny jeans and a black Korn shirt, I checked the time on my phone. Damn, I'd been in the shower almost an hour. And it was still to early to do much.

Oh well fuck it, I said grabbing my phone and walking through to the room, throwing myself down backwards onto the bed.

I went into my text messages, and found the thread I was looking for. The number I'd almost deleted a thousand times but could never quite bring myself to.

I contemplated what to write for a while, but decided to keep it short and sweet.

📨 Alexis
Hey. Can we meet up today? Guess we should talk...

Throwing my phone down beside me, I curled up onto the pillow, closing my eyes and inhaling Dom's masculine scent from the linen.

I woke an hour later. Shit, I didn't even remember falling asleep. Sitting un and checking my phone, I saw I had a text.

📨 Charlie xx
Holy shit Lex! I've missed you sooo much! Let's catch up for sure, wanna do breakfast? Name the place 😘

I couldn't help but think how normal her message was. Like I'd just been on holiday or outta town or something, not that like this huge shit storm had gone down between us without even seeing each other.

And then another thought hit me. Fuck, even if I could ditched the lockdown for a couple hours, I have no car and no money for a taxi, let alone breakfast. Not working was really becoming a bitch. I had no choice but to do the unthinkable.

📨 Alexis
Cool, hate to ask but could you come to the clubhouse?

She replied in an instant.

📨 Charlie
Wtf Alexis! Your at the gangs clubhouse? I guess so, send me the addy, be there soon as I can.

After sending her the address, I headed downstairs to the kitchen.

Half expecting to have to make something for us to eat myself, I was pleasantly suprised to see Deena and Jenny in the kitchen already working away at the stoves.

Morning love, Jenny said as she glance over her shoulder and noticed me in the room. What's got you up so early this Monday morning.

The thought suddenly hit me that maybe I should have asked someone before just inviting guests over like I owned the place.

I...uhh... I have someone coming to meet me for breakfast.

Raising an eyebrow at me curiously, she  grinned. Well as long as its not gonna cause any trouble for the club or Reaper, its fine.

Oh, it's just an old girlfriend. I didn't want them to get the wrong idea.
She won't be far away actually...

Well out you go, Deena ushered. Best go out and meet her before the prospects stop her. There's some empty old conference rooms down the end of the hall past the infirmary, why don't you ladies head in there. Its cosy and you'll get some privacy. We'll whip you ladies up something special and bring it on in if you like.

After ensuring they didn't mind and I wasn't putting anyone out, I thanked the two for their help and headed outside to wait, anxious as to how this was all about to go down.