888 || Don't judge me , 𝐃𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐠𝐞 𝐦𝐞

J'leah point of view

{ J'leah }
Hey , Dee'Leah ? Mom said come here like now not 10 minutes later .

She leaned up off her bed grabbing her phone .

{ Dee'Leah }
Okay ...here I come get out my room J'leah .

I shut her room door shaking my head . Cause , that's exactly . Why her bald head ass got up in the first place .

I mean both me and my sister have a lot of hair . But she only bald head . When I'm aggravated with something .

I went straight to my room shutting my door locking my door placing a chair underneath the door knob .

I grabbed my razor blade from underneath my bed rail seating down on my bed . Opening up my box , where I keep my razor blades .

I put the top on my bed holding the box . Looking down at the razor blade picking up one looking at it .

💭No , I can't do this💭

💭Yes , I can nobody knows besides Jada right ... Tink too💭

Without another thought I quickly pulled my shirt up along with my sports bra cutting myself underneath my tittie.

It hurted a little but , I did it again small cuts . Tears fall down my face this just felt so right .

I don't know why , I do this I used to have this thing . Like when I'm really overwhelmed , I'd pull out my hair.

In the back of my head . But my hair grows back you can hardly ever tell anyways.

Knock knock

{ Dee'Leah }
Aye sis ! Why your room door shut then you have the nerve to lock the door too . You know Mom doesn't allow you to shut your door .

I ignored her cutting my stomach pulling my sports down along with my shirt . I quickly wrapped up the razor blade I used into tissue throwing it in my trashcan pushing my trashcan beside my bed in between the dresser .

My sister kept knocking on my room door . I pushed the box underneath my bed hardly.

I got up walking towards my room door removing the chair unlocking the door.

I semi open up my room door looking at her holding my stomach .

{ J'leah }
Yeah Sis ?

She looked at me concerned holding our mom car keys .

{ Dee'Leah}
You good sis ? You wanna ride with me to Jayce house ?

{ J'leah}
For what did you see what Mom wanted?

She leaned on the dresser by my room door.

{ Dee'Leah}
What do mean for what you coming or not idiot. It's not that hard yes I been seen what Mom wanted ... why you shut yo door for ? .

I chuckled crossing my arms mean mugging her .

{ J'leah}
Why , I always got get called out my name . Nobody else's in our friend group does that but you , you ne-