His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 93

Luke

I drove home from Adriano's place, all the while my mind was divided in so many places, I didn't know how to feel, I want to be mad at Adriano, I want to hate him, I feel betrayed but in a way, I can understand why he would do what he did, but it didn't excuse the fact that I trusted him, and it turns out he was only using me.

I knew he was hiding something from me, because after our talk two days ago about Stefano, he'd been acting strange, he sort of withdrew from me, and there was always this guilty look in his eyes whenever I looked at him, I just couldn't pinpoint what it was, and never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that this would be why he was being like that.

It made me wonder if Spade knew about who he was when he asked if I knew anything about him in New York.
I clenched my hand by my side.
What kind of stupid luck do I have?
I think I found someone, someone that I can build something with, someone I can trust and rely on, only to find out, that he got close to me because wanted revenge for his brother.

Why didn't I even see it?
Why didn't I see the similarities between them?
Looking back at it now, Adriano does look like his brother, but much bolder and confident.

And today he just threw it out there that he was in love with me.
That should scare me, that should terrify me, but the fact that he lied to me, outweighed the confession he made.
I can't just pretend that the man I'm supposed to be dating, wasn't trying to kill me before.
What if...?
What if I never told him about Stefano?
Would he have killed me? Thinking I killed his brother I cold blood.

I pushed open my door and stepped inside, I was expecting it to be empty, because it's my house and I live alone.
But I was shocked when I walked inside and Hewitt was standing there, in the middle of my living room, waiting for me

I clenched my jaw the moment my eyes met his
What the fuck is he doing here?
I am in no mood to do this right now
"What are you doing here"? I gritted out to him "how did you even get into my house"? I asked, not giving him a chance to answer the first question.

He sighed out heavily before taking a step close to me "I came to see you" he whispered out and I clenched my jaw, cocking my brows up, of course I know he's here to see me but why, and how did he get into my house?
"We need to talk" he rushed out, I scoffed out lowly shaking my head

"You want to talk, now you want to talk"? I asked, feeling aggravated, all the anger from everything Adriano said to me, was starting to surface "what happened to months ago? Why couldn't we talk then? Huh"? I asked, taking a step close to him, he took one back on instinct, clenching his jaw
"Doesn't it bother you anymore that I have feelings for you? Aren't you freaked out that I love you"? I asked, feeling the anger every second, I hated that I couldn't control my anger, I'm not usually like this, but everything happening now, it's all his fault.

If he didn't reject me, then I would never have met Adriano, if I didn't walk in on him and that girl that night, I wouldn't have left
I didn't need him to return my feelings, all I needed was for him to acknowledge them, to respect them, but he broke my heart
"Luke..." I cut him off, glaring hard at him.

"Don't, Hewitt don't even say anything" I gritted out "now you realize you like me, and you want me to drop everything and just what? Jump into your arms, because God forbid I actually move on from you, God forbid I find happiness in someone else"? I rushed out, I could see the pain clear in his eyes, but I didn't care, he said far worse things to me, I didn't die, surely he can endure a little pain.

"I'm sorry" he whispered out, his voice shaking, I shook my head, grazing my tongue along my teeth

"It's too late, you're too late Hewitt, what you're giving me now, I don't need it anymore" I whispered out, hearing him gasp out lowly, I sighed out, knowing what I'd say next would hurt him, more than he would expect, but it has to be done, I can't do this with him right now, I can't
"I don't love you anymore Hewitt" I rasped out, and I watched him blink back the tears, his lips parting in the middle as he stared at me in total and complete shock.