His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 92

Adriano

Coming into Luke's life, was something that I never thought would go this far, or drag on this long.
When I decided that I wanted to get close to him, it was for a different purpose, I had it all mapped out in my head, and In my mind, it'll be easy, go in, go out, no wasting time.

But I came to realize that it's not that easy, from afar it looks and seems easy, but turns out, Luke is not someone you step into his life, and step out easily.

I didn't realize that before, because I had it all planned in my head, how everything would play out, but turns out I was wrong.
I can't just walk out of his life, like walking out of a closet.
I'm neck in deep into this, that I can't even stop it if I want to, and I don't even know what to do.

I had a plan, a purpose for walking into his office building a few months ago, and for a while I stuck to it, but as time went on, I started to see him as more than just a mission, something I had to do

And now.... Now I'm in love with him, and I don't even know what to do.
I don't know if I should tell him the truth, or just keep it a secret and work on us, work on making this work.
I'm not stupid, I know Luke doesn't love me, hell I doubt he likes me that much, but he cares about me, I know that much.

This is a huge fucking secret, and I know the right thing for me to do, is to just tell him the truth, come clean.
At this point I know we don't really stand a chance at being together, and it's not just because of the secret I'm keeping from him, it's because of the fact that I know he's in love with Hewitt, and the feelings are so strong that he can't even hide it.

It's very obvious, especially when we're together and we start getting intimate, I notice he freezes up everytime, and I know it's not because he's a virgin, Luke is far from being a virgin, that much I know.
He freezes up because he can't do it, he can't let us go that far, knowing he has feelings for someone else.

When we just started off, I wasn't bothered by it, because I didn't care, I was just with him out of convenience and because I had to, but now, it stings when he freezes up when I touch him, because deep down I know he's still not comfortable going all the way with him, but he did with Hewitt.

Ever since two days ago, since he told me about Stefano and what happened to him 16 years ago, I've been feeling a shit ton of guilt, but more than that, I've been so mad at myself, and Reuben.
Because once again, I was fucking wrong about everything.

I came into his life because I felt he had wronged me, and I needed closure, but now I got it, I finally got the closure, and it's not what I expected, not even close

I was standing out in my balcony, my hand on the railing as I looked up into the sky, my mind going back to all the times Reuben had made me do this with him, even though he knew I hated it so much, now I can't help it, every chance I get, I stare into the night, watching the stars and the sky.

He's the reason why I started this whole thing with Luke in the first place, and now I'm beginning to realize that it was a huge fucking mistake, I should have just let it go.

I heard the glass door slid open and in seconds, I felt hands wrap around my torso, causing me to shut my eyes
"Hey" Luke muttered out against my back, his face pressed on my back, I got up, leaning my body into his as I sighed out heavily

"Hey" I whispered out

"You've been out for hours, it's getting cold, you should come in, I'm done with work now" he whispered out, I swallowed hard.
Wrapping my hand around his wrist, I slowly pried his hands off me, turning around to face him, I immediately saw the frown on his face, his lips pouting, Luke is cute and sweet