His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 89

Luke

When I got into the cab, the first thing that came into my mind was to head over to Hewitt's place, I don't know why but I felt like I needed to see him, I needed to apologize for what Adriano did, but last minute I decided against it, I don't think he'd want to see me now, if indeed he heard Adriano and I, then I don't think I'm the person he should see right now.

I know I didn't want to see him after I walked in on him and that girl that night, so instead of heading over to his place, I told the cab driver to take me to Spade's club instead, I know he'll be there by this time of the day.

And I was right, Spade was in his office at the club when I got there, I was watching him work on his computer but my mind was lost in thoughts, I kept thinking back to why Adriano would do what he did to Hewitt.
He knew Hewitt was in Spade's house last night, and yet he didn't tell me.

I don't get why Adriano feels he needs to prove a point about being with me, I brought him here, if I didn't want him here, I wouldn't have done that.
I chose him over Hewitt, I've been here for four days, and In that time I came to realize Hewitt has feelings for me, I have every chance to be with Hewitt if I want to, but I know it'll be foolish of me to leave Adriano and run to Hewitt.

He broke my heart once before, who's to say he won't do it again.
As much as I love him, and I want him, I can't risk it.
I have something beautiful with Adriano, I don't want to throw that away for Hewitt's feelings that I'm not even sure about.

I sighed out and looked at Spade, he had long stopped working on his computer and was now looking at me, his brows raised up.
I've been here for over thirty minutes now, and I haven't said a word to him, he doesn't even know why I'm here.

It was his house last night, and he invited us over, did he know that Hewitt was there?
"Did you know"? I blurted out and he just stared at me blankly, cocking his head sideways "did you know that Hewitt was at your house last night"? I asked again and he frowned clenching his jaw, before he slowly started shaking his head.

"Not exactly, no, I didn't" he muttered out "I didn't even know Van Horne was there last night, until we got there" he explained and I frowned, Spade does this sometimes, referring to Stefano by his last name, I don't know why but I've never bothered to ask
"Did something happen"? He asked and I looked at him, contemplating if it was okay to tell him, I mean Spade's never really bothered with me like that, not that he doesn't care, but like Adriano said, he doesn't talk much, he only does when it's necessary.

"Adriano, he uh.... He did something to hurt him, and now I don't know what to do" I rushed out, he didn't react, he just folded his hands together on his table, waiting for me to continue.
"I've asked Adriano about it, I've blamed him for it, but I feel guilty, I feel like it's all my fault, I brought Adriano here, so whatever he does to Hewitt, I caused it" I whispered out, knowing now why I felt so pissed off at Adriano before.
It was the guilt.

Spade narrowed his eyes at me, leaning on to his table "why did you bring him here"? He asked and I froze up for a second, before my nerves eased themselves up, my mind processing Spade's question.

"I did it because I needed him to be here with me" I muttered out, Spade just raised his brows at me, waiting for a better explanation, I sighed out and ran my hand down my face "Spade, you do know I'm in love with Hewitt"? I asked and he just stared at me, unblinking, not even reacting to what I just said, but I could tell he was listening attentively "when I met Adriano, I didn't know I would end up....." I paused, sighing out heavily, I ran my hand down my face "I don't want to hurt him, Spade I don't want to hurt Adriano, and deep down I think I know that if I have to choose between Adriano and Hewitt, I would pick Hewitt and I don't want that to happen, I needed a reminder, something to keep me grounded, that's why I brought him with me" I rushed out in a whisper.