His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 82

Luke

I was fucking nervous, my heart was beating wildly in my chest, and I could barely keep my hands from shaking, but I was trying to hide it, I didn't want Adriano to worry, or feel bad for us coming here.

I spent the last two days analyzing what it'll be like when I come to Spade and Nate's engagement party, no doubt i know I'll see Hewitt here, that's not something I can avoid even if i want to.
It's how I'm going to face him, how I'm going to react when I see him after this much time away from him.

Now we were finally here and I somehow wish I could just turn around and get the hell out of here, I don't think it was a good idea coming here, first of all, Stefano and the others don't know about Adriano, there's introducing him, I don't know what I'm going to introduce him as.
We don't have a label for our relationship, even though I didn't argue with Spade when he called him my boyfriend, I still don't think I have gotten around to calling him that.

All I know is, Adriano is not a fling, or a hook up, but I don't think I can call him my boyfriend yet, I just feel like that's a huge step for me, and I'm not ready yet.
I looked up at the elevator just as the doors pulled open, causing me to sigh out heavily, I stepped out with Adriano right behind me, he was on call, so he didn't pay much attention to my nerve racking reaction.

We both walked towards the huge double glass doors and I stopped in front of it, Adriano was just following in my footsteps, he stopped too, still engrossed in his call, I could see people inside the hall, making me swallow hard, If we go in there, there's no going back, everything becomes real, the fact that I'm here with Adriano, the fact that I even came back to New York at all, and the fact that there's a 90% chance that I will run into Hewitt tonight.

Stefano and I spoke on the phone yesterday, he knows I'm in New York, but we decided we would meet here at Spade's party, that alone was making me nervous, I don't know how he'll react to me bringing Adriano here, I haven't even told him that I'm seeing someone.

I felt Adriano's hand on my lower back, I looked up at him but he was still on the phone, he just smiled at me warmly, somehow easing some of my tension, before he slowly nudged my back, asking me to go in, I bit my lips and looked at the door, before I shook my head, mentally preparing myself for what tonight might hold for me

I placed my hand on the double doors and pushed it gently, causing it to open wide for both Adriano and I, I stepped in first and I felt him follow me immediately, my eyes immediately started moving around the huge hall, I don't know what I'm looking for, but I'm just searching, searching for a pair of silver eyes, everything inside me was calling out for him and I hated that I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't stop my eyes, my heart, and my body from searching for him.

I suddenly felt Adriano's hand wrapped around mine, I looked at him and he smiled at me warmly, causing my heart to clench tight, what the fuck is wrong with me, I have a very caring and adorable man beside me, yet I'm still looking for the one that doesn't even give a shit if I'm here or not.

I forced a smile back to Adriano, wrapping my fingers tightly around his, I need to focus on him, I brought him here, he's the reason I'm here, I shouldn't hurt him like this, even though he acts as if it's okay for me to be in love with someone else, I know it's not easy, I've been on that side of love before, I don't want to put him there.

"Are you okay"? He asked softly and I pressed my lips together and nodded quickly "okay, let's go" he whispered close to my ear, before he smiled at me and started leading me into the hall, it was packed with people, I thought Spade said it was just a small gathering, there's nothing small about this, there were a lot of people here, and I didn't need to be told, to know that most of them are from the underworld, the world of crime