His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 73

Luke

I was still trying to focus on the document in front of me, but it was proving difficult, and I needed it done before the end of the day, but I can't help how my mind works, I haven't been able to shake that weird feeling of feeling Adriano's erection out of my head.
I've had sex with guys, I've done other crazy shit, so why does the idea of doing it with Adriano shake me up so much?

I sighed out, knowing that If I kept thinking about it too much, I will get the answer to the question, but I doubt it'll be the answer I want.
Deep down I think I know why I felt so weird doing something intimate with Adriano, and I don't want to think about him.
He's not here but he's still messing with my head, with my life.
But it's not his fault, he didn't ask me to.... I clench my jaw and pinched the bridge of my nose, I need to get over him, but it's not that easy.

The door to my office burst open and Alicia strolled in "I just passed by Adriano on my way here and he seemed....." She paused and frowned, before sitting down on the chair in front of me "why the long face"? She asked and I just sighed out and shook my head

"Nothing, I'm just tired that's all" I lied to her, I could tell she didn't buy it because of the skeptical look she was throwing my way.

"Luke, what happened, did he do something to you? Did you guys have a fight"? She rushed out and I just sighed out and clenched my jaw

"He didn't do anything to me Alicia and no we didn't have a fight" I rushed out and she frowned, before leaning in to the table, gently placing her hand on top of mine

"Then what's going on, why do you have that face? Don't you want him around you"? She asked and I just shook my head, of course I want him around me, if I didn't, I wouldn't let him kiss me.

"I want him around me Alicia, it's just ...." I paused and swallowed hard, how am I going to explain to her that I freaked out because I felt Adriano's erection, how do I explain what I'm feeling to her?
"It's nothing, I'm just stressed out, I'll be fine" I whispered out before I got up, pulling my hand away from hers "I have to go now, I'll see you later" I muttered out before I made my way out of the office, feeling my head spin.

I sighed out shakily, as I made my way down the elevator, my meeting doesn't start until 15 minutes time, but I can't go to a meeting like this, I need to clear my head.
If I'm going to make anything work with Adriano, I need to get rid of this... Whatever it is.

It wouldn't be fair of me to let whatever this is spoil something good with Adriano, even though I'm not sure about my feelings for him yet, he deserves my complete and total attention and commitment, I can't be with him and be having thoughts like this, or freaking out like this.

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I strolled down the stairs, water dripping down my hair and soaking part of my shirt wet, the shower I just had was long overdue for me, for all the work I'd been roped into today, most of which I couldn't even concentrate on properly, thanks to the little incident that happened with Adriano.

I spent the whole day mopping around every meeting I had, some I had to cancel and postpone, because I couldn't understand anything going on around me.
After a few hours of basically mopping around the office, I was able to sneak out without Alicia seeing me and asking questions again.

Now I was home, I just had a warm, soothing shower, and I decided that maybe I can finish some of the work I brought home, at least now my head is in the right place, I hope.

I plopped down on the couch, my eyes scanning the different files, papers and documents littered on my table, which to begin with?
I chewed on my bottom lip, before I reached for one of the papers, scanning through it, it was an office decor project, something like what I did for Adriano.